not sure what is causing the sleep issues but we took benadryl a little bit ago!! lol yeah sometimes we arent above cheating!!
thanks for saying we are managing well.. we are trying but its been me out lately and the others have been quiet but i expect sarah to be out soon to relax and try to sleep.
*yawn* that is a good sign ha!
anyhow funny about bada.. its just how i talk tho.. i cuss way too much i refrain quite a bit on here.. SADIE
EMMA!! YAY!! we dos remembrs you? we did evn as peepls on heer if tey heerd from yous cuz waz worid cuz no sees you long tim. we bes glad you ok=)
we veri sori bout bad memorees. tat scaree huh? =/ we has lots stuf chang insid to tat bes happn now. it scaree cuz we not sur if it bes al good, but wel we tink we lernd som tings. somhow- i no kno how, eefr me or sadee lernd how put safe sownd proof bubbl arownd my room =) but i still can talks in my room an tey can heers me outsid stil. not kno how tat werks but we can sees it. wes be glad for bubbl caus ten i can hids in room an no heers nuffin outsid if it bes scaree.. but i stil kinna knos .. i tink mayb bubbl not veri strong yet. i kno no. we confusd bout it al .. tings bes werd. rite now it bes 2am.. we gotd 3hrs sleeps so far tonit aftr sadie takd benadrill's erlr.. we tink an hops we seeps more befor tims to get redi for werk.
we forgitd to tels anibodi til jus now.but ofr nite eefr it waz me or sadie but on us figur out how to put my room in sownd proof bubbl. we not sur how or who do it an it werk werd to cuz ttey stil can heer me talk in my room wif the bubbl but i no can heer.. bubbl not veri strong tho cuz i stil kinna kno wat happn but mayb it get strongr latr.. we jus need figur out who an how we makd it i tink mayb my room bes magic an it dos it by self wen i go ther cuz trigrd?? i not kno. sarah
Last edited by hidingme : 14-09-2010 at 08:41 AM.
Reason: PURPL!!!!!
Sarah - Maybe the bubble is a way for your mind to protect you when you are feeling scared and remembering things? We don't get a bubble like that, but we often feel like we are in our own little world, like a bubble, and no one can reach us when we have gone into that alternate reality. If it makes you feel safe, then I'm glad. We hope that you all slept better last night.
Emma - I hope that you're doing ok. The host used to post here and the host often thinks of you and wonders how you are doing.
Kitkat - Maybe you could jot stuff down on your mobile? We write a lot in our journals but if we are out and about or just trying to concentrate on real life then we make notes on our phone to explore in depth later on when we are writing.
Labyrinth - Are you going away with people who will be supportive? I'm sure you will be fine. Make plans and preparations where you can, and allow yourself to be excited about a holiday :-]
We had nightmares last night and feel so drained. The legal action thing is going round and round our head and we don't know what to do, what the best thing is to do. Most of all we want to protect other potential victims. The host is also wondering about contacting the abuser's exes as they are the only people who would understand. Other possible ideas is to contact the police to make a note on the abuser's record, to ask Women's Aid for advice, and to call up credit companies to let them know of the abuser's address. Any thoughts on taking action in some way against the abuser? It's not for now, the host doesn't feel any emotion about any of it right now, let alone anger, but the host does worry about whose life he will destroy next.
we got 6 hrs sleep last night!! stil not lik our norm but better! Sarah is reeli excitd about the bubbl btw.. afriend said she needs to practis wif it more to mak it strongr and work better so she is gonna tri to. i dos tink it gona bes hard werk. anyhow gmorning evrybodi. <3 Hiding & sarah
she's a bit creepy to be honest... there was something about her eyes that made me feel nervous, not sure what it was though...
Got to go back in 2 weeks to sort out medication (still got some from before the move that Jack is keeping hold of) and she'll be away then so will be seeing someone else. There are only 3 doctors at the surgery!
Emma~ i can relate to busyness inside and being easily overwhelmed.. we have alot of changes taking place inside and we arent sure about what they are or why or how or if they are good or bad.. so far they seem good but guess we are nervous cause it seems we dont know the changes until they happen *shrug*
i get easily overwhelmed with this forgetting and major confusion we have the past week or so now.. ugh.. take care. Hiding
Emma keeps getting really confused. She will say she's Emma and she's 20 (both correct) but then describes her life as if she's a teenager again... i.e. pets still alive, doesnt know me, still thinks she's at school etc...
has anyone ever experienced anything like this before? I don't really know what to do.... Help!
P.s I'm Emma's partner, i forgot to login to my own account!
Last edited by Cherry Tree : 14-09-2010 at 07:29 PM.
Reason: added p.s.
I'm just... sat here. Going through my stuff, my life. She was my life. And I think I still feel something for her, maybe I still love her? I'm confused. I hate feeling so uncertain and I just keep pushing feelings away. Need to box up my stuff in my parent's attic and sort out somewhere new to live and move in. I keep blanking out, and finding more stuff unpacked or sorted out.
I just want to curl up and die. Don't want to feel anything anymore.
For those doubts that swirl all around us
For those lives that tear at the seams
We know… we’re not what we’ve seen
For this dance we’ll move with each other
There ain’t no other step than one foot
Right in front of the other
A thousand mile journey starts with the first step
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Hey everyone, hope you're all doing okay.
Sorry to hear you're going through a tough time Scath.
Obadiah that's a good idea about me noting things down on my phone, I might just do that.
Hiding, sorry to hear all the changes are affecting you, if you need to talk to me just PM me (:
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I'm just wondering, do you have to register at a doctors before you can make an appointment? If I do go back to get help, then I'd rather not go to the doctors that I normally go to, I don't really like them... Last time when I see my GP to get help I told her I was SI'ing and she just said "Don't do it."
