we wan dy but can no dys. we wan seeps al tims but can no do tat neefr . we wans stop go werk forevr but no can do tat neefer.
we fels we no good to nobodi an nobodi lovs us evn tho michel an aly say tey dos we fels tey dos not.
it alwas rayn insid. nevr sunni no mor evr. outsid bes sam wif rayn lots. nuffin evr bes good alwas bad bad bad.
we wan talk frends an be hug an lovd but we fels lik e just bofr evribodi an evribodi jus bes mad cuz we alwas sad and no hapi evr animor. we sori we can no help tat we is sad al tims. i not kno wy we is alwas bes sad we jus is.. nuffin is good in lif. we no lik lif. we no lik us selvs.
we wis we culd jus dispeer forevr an no bodi evr mis us or evr membr we evr did liv. Sarah i go seeps now..i tri to.. hard to wen so sad but we has werk in mornig. =(((
*hugs to hidingme* i'm sorry you (multiple?) are sad, im here if you wanna talk but dunno how much good ill be to be honest, brain falling apart
*kicks a beanbag*
life is being sucky and confusing
not sure how long i can go on feeling like this, and i fought it for AGES, i thiought i was getting better cos i just dont think about anything any more, but it doesnt make it go away i guess
"i want you within my soul,
arms open wide i would swallow you whole.
We melt together,souls drift in the flames.
passion burning, and the skies ablaze.
Along such beauty and grace,and I am barely worth your presence, my fingertips graze your face.
You will be the one,I could never replace.
And two become one, We are one in the same."
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍
"i want you within my soul,
arms open wide i would swallow you whole.
We melt together,souls drift in the flames.
passion burning, and the skies ablaze.
Along such beauty and grace,and I am barely worth your presence, my fingertips graze your face.
You will be the one,I could never replace.
And two become one, We are one in the same."
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍
"i want you within my soul,
arms open wide i would swallow you whole.
We melt together,souls drift in the flames.
passion burning, and the skies ablaze.
Along such beauty and grace,and I am barely worth your presence, my fingertips graze your face.
You will be the one,I could never replace.
And two become one, We are one in the same."
...just unintintionally made myself ill
stupid stupid stupid anxiety
god now I'll have the flu for days....
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍
I was wondering if I could get some peoples opinions on something?
Over the last few weeks I have been falling more and more on to using alcohol as a sort of coping mechanism. Now I few years ago I had a real problem with alcohol (hiding bottle round the flat, sneeking shot into other drinks, not being able to sleep without drinking, etc) and I'm scared of going back that way but at the moment living without drinking just feels too hard and scary... My new GP gave me an AA leaflet and wants me to go on Saturday to a meeting... should I go?
I think you should go to the AA meeting. Better to nip the problem in the bud than let it get out of hand, and maybe even exacerbate your anxiety. *hugs*
Farewell the Ashtray Girl
July 12, 1987-April 30, 2010
give it a try, if it helps its worth it. *hugs if you want*
anyone have practical advice on how to deal with someone who is attracted to you and freaking you out even though theyve not done anything and its you over reacting because you can't deal with that sort of thing?
and you can't avoid them because theyre at meetings you have to be at. avoidance would be my usual tactic, but i can't see any reasonably legitimate way to miss every meeting they're at, not if i want to keep my job anyway.
im just feeling a bit wound up at the moment, been triggered by some stuff and its not this persons fault at all i just don't know how to be normal about this sort of thing.
*wraps up in fluffy blanket and grumbles to self*
for delicate were the moths and badly wanted
here in a world by mammoth figures haunted!
"A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'"
5 year old me let out some of the emotion and pain from all those years ago today. just wanted to know why noone would stop a little girl from being beaten up.
so im going to hide under a pile of cuddly toys and go to sleeep.
maybe cry some more..
