hey kat we are all supr depressed work is ****ig stupid.. bosses are idiots and assholes.. yealled at twice once each day begging michael to find work so we can quit.. i am ver suicidal idealizations and i really really want to s/i badly but havent.. instead i took 2 1mg xanax so im loopy right no w and probably no making sense..sorry..
life ****ing sucks!! the only reason we have nt tried to kill ourselves is cause of michael and aly cause they need us and we can hurt them that way.. very anti social and hate people and life in genenral lately..it just is not worth the tormen..
im sorry if i triggered anyone.. kinda high on xanax.. or something.. sure we will pass out soon lol sleep is better than cutting right? SADIE
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So am I, for the same reason, my boss keeps shouting at me for things I didn't even do, and it's really annoying me and getting me down :/ keep up with the good work of not SI'ing Sadie (:
Sleep is better than cutting, try to sleep off all those feelings.
Hope you wake up feeling better in the morning (:
so far feeling a little better.. sleep seemed to help.. not sure who is out right now .. which is why there is no faont color.. kinda a mix of hiding and sadie i think.. hard to tell who is out sometimes..hate that.
as sadie goes.. she didnt cut.. we slept from 7pm till now at 7am 12 hrs..
her feelings of hating life, society, the whole world and people is affecting us all.
just gonna go to work and not talk to anyone at all more than we have to.
"A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'"
we bes supr swichee toda lots.. sadie say tank you for tel her she do good for no cut. no one telher she do good cept you. so she say tank you it meens lots to hers.
hi hi litl... how old yous bes? i bes onli 6. wy you bes yeld at for coms heer? i sori . it no fun to be yeld at an bes in trubl. =( *saf huggees*
----- we has hard da an hard week. evribodi evriwher efr is sad or mad or somting. nuffin evr bes happi an good animor..EVR..
we start wondr wy we bes liv at al.. we no gona mak us dispeer or bes hurt but we al start wondr wy we evn be aliv. =(
we been tri fing therpy dr..to help us. onli dr we kno can help and we can mayb hav the $ to go se is in downtown city an we can no driv ther cuz are bad trafik anxity. i emale a dr closr who werk wif multis an hers emales bak. her low fee is $50 stil way too pensiv.=( i as if her can maybe emale talk to us an her says hers cant somting bout liabilty???? so it mak us saddr an mor depressd .. we feels so veri sad an los .. likwe nevr can find good helps.. we bes lik tis forevr i ges.
"A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'"
Hey :)
Whats your name?
We are the lostboys, it's good to meet you :)
We don't think you are bad, you don't need to be sorry at all.
Sometimes the youngsters here get very scared, and they feel like they are bad too, most of the time because nasty people did bad things to them and made them feel like they were the bad ones. But the youngsters aren't bad at all, and neither are you.
When our little ones feel that way we try and make them feel safe and try and help them understand that they haven't done anything wrong, that they most definitely aren't bad. We try make them feel cared for. We give them their stuffed animals, get them wrapped up in a blanket, sometimes put Thomas the tank engine on the tv.
Could you perhaps talk to one of your bigs? See if they can help you to feel less scared? It seems like you need them at the moment. It's our job as bigs to do our best to make sure the youngsters are ok.
We've been a bit all over the shop. Doing our best to keep as steady as possible, with little luck.
We're being overwhelmed with flashbacks, and switching along with it, it's terribly draining and upsetting.
Fathers day is tomorrow and we're not coping with it much at all. Trying not to think about it, but of course it's everywhere in the media; radio, tv, newspapers, shopping centres...
Ash's mum and step dad have gone interstate for a holiday, so we're staying with Ash's grandparents, which is ok (they are wonderful) but we sort of would like to be alone.
Hiding,
We hope you can find a T that is closer to you and not too expensive. Lots of places have online therapist lists (for lack of a better word) that tells you what qualifications they have, their specialty, area and contact details. Alot of them also have an e-mail address, so you can e-mail them a little bit about yourself, and ask them questions about the way they work with patients. Have you tried any of those?
thanks kit kat.. we still feel the same just twisty and switchy today.
lostboys~ yeah tried that .. that was where we found the T we had emailed. we really like how they list so much detailed info about them... so far not much luck.. thinking we will end up having to go back to the t we saw before which doesnt work with trauma or ptsd or dissociative disorders and i guess just try to find one that will seem to be more understanding and compassionate with our issues.. it seems like the only option right now..
the place the psych ward referred us too sounds great.. appts till9 pm sliding fee scale but... closest office is in downtown and traffic to horrible there and i KNOW there is no way at all we can drive there. so i dont know.. Thanks tho.. hope you all are doing ok .. we havent heard from yall in like..forever..it seems. SADIE
"A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'"
not having a good day