Shadow i know youre right, im just tired of today and tired of feeling like crap and i dont want to feel any more. How are you tonight? Scath, im glad your girlfriend will be with you soon. In the mean time maybe you could do something to keep busy and distracted like going for a walk, cooking or having a bath?
InsanityLives - Did you get through the night ok? Is Jordan ok?
Hazel - Hope you're feeling better today.
Hope everyone has a good day today :-]
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I did SH in the end :-/ Later in the night my boyfriend called and we spoke for ages. He said he is so sorry about the way he's been treating me and we talked a lot about it all. I feel very much soothed by this. I'm still feeling very confused and mixed up about it all, but I feel much calmer and at peace now. Today got off to a very bad start because I overslept and now I can't go to the gym :'-[ Freaking out.
Reading him a story is a good idea. I do that for my littles, and i have some kids songs on cd and some kids tv programmes too. Yeah i feel a lot better now he apologised and everything i still dont feel its completely over and dealt with but its a huge step Hope everyone is ok xxx
A thousand mile journey starts with the first step
Join Date: Oct 2009
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No, Ayka's never had help with her eating.
It's been so weird... I've forgotten the last week already and can only just barely remember the last 24 hours...
If you look on my journal and in my r/v thread you'll see I'm not really making sense... My thought patterns too disrupted and I can't get a word out to explain myself.
"A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'"
"A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'"
tried contacting people but they have their own lives and their own problems
i mean my parents are in the room but it still seems lonely
sorry
being pathetic
"A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'"
Jen - I'm so glad you're having a good day and that communication is going well between everyone. I can really understand how frustrating it is when you find out that there are more but you don't know how many or who, but they will come out when they are ready. Just give it time :-]
Allison - Some of mine mentioned a while ago that there were more, but didn't know any more than that - just that they knew there were more. Don't be sorry for not knowing more, you will find out when the time is right :-] How are you doing?
Newlife - Could you talk to your parents about how you are feeling? Maybe you could go for a walk to clear your head a little? *Hugs*
InsanityLives - Hope you're doing ok.
I got really upset earlier about my stupid birthday. I can't be bothered to go into the reasons but I just felt like no one cares :-[ It's all sorted now but I just feel crappy and I SHed which is bad because usually I wait until night time.
tried contacting people but they have their own lives and their own problems
i mean my parents are in the room but it still seems lonely
sorry
being pathetic
maybe but that doesnt meake your problems any less important.
ill listen
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I got really upset earlier about my stupid birthday. I can't be bothered to go into the reasons but I just felt like no one cares :-[ It's all sorted now but I just feel crappy and I SHed which is bad because usually I wait until night time.
birthdays are stressful, im not looking forward to ours - mainly cuz im not getting older, bt the whole stress thing too.
jordan is being chatty at me. Yes, at me. He hasn't stopped once in half an hour to get a responce, and hasn't tried to write in the notebook again.
Its progress that hes talking though, is he ok? Yeah im dreading my birthday, its my 21st as well so i want it to be good, but finding it stressful and difficult which makes me feel so guilty. Hope everyones doing ok tonight x
yeah he's fine. hyperactive and managing to talk about less-than-happy topics without any emotion to it, but i'm not gonna push it... he wannts to get the emotions attached out later thats ok. i'm just glad he's opening up.
it is progress. and kyle decided to seclude himself again (his boy's at a party... means i can't talk to jake either which suckszors) so i think that's got jordan a little more comfertable with chatting.
still on here i think i'm only gonna let him in the playground (and maybe safe room if he needs it)
ick. 21st.. can't figure out where your location is but if you're in the US god i feel bad for you with the peer preasure.
we're be turning 16 in less than 2 weeks.
[im kinda scared to see kyle driving...]
That does sound like huge progress with Jordan just take it slow and build up the trust. Im in the UK so ive already done the big drinking one lol but i still feel it should be a special one, just dont feel special. Asa nice to meet you, how are you? Hazel hope youre doing ok today?
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i still dont feel its completely over and dealt with but its a huge step 
