Triggering (Suicide) - I'm sorry... To everyone

[xgx]

not eveyone thought that though,and i am sure it didnt make them worse.please dont plame yourself or hurt your self because it wasnt your falt

[shadow-light]

afraid I have to agree with Facet... I mean it took them 6 years to diagnose me, and even then it wasn't until my partner went in the speak to them that they managed to do that as he was more aware of what was going on with me than I was as I couldn't remember half of what I did/said let alone be able to explain what was going on... and even then they labeled me as DDNOS for ages as they wanted to "meet" an alter before puttin g the DID label down


though a lot of psychs do seem to still say MPD not DID, they seem to use them interchangably as some disagree with the name change

[shadow-light]

have you ever brought up the dissociation topic with your therapist?

[Kitkat :)]

Yeah but I think it and it won't go away.
I should just go away, that would be the best thing for everyone.
I deserve to be hurt, I haven't done anyone any favours.

[Kitkat :)]

No I haven't seen her for two weeks
It's only happened recently
Cos I got recommended to the DID thread cos someone said it sounded like that
Then they got me talking with their alters as well apparently. I don't remember the conversations.

[shadow-light]

you don't deserve to be hurt. noone deseerves tobe hurt

[Kitkat :)]

Well I do cos I've just screwed everything over completely

[shadow-light]

you haven't, and even if you had you still wouldn't deserve to be hiurt

[Kitkat :)]

I really have...
I'm so angry with myself.

[Kitkat :)]

I thought this could be the one place where I wouldn't annoy someone.
But I've outshone myself, once again.

[Cally]

Like shadow-light says no-one deserves to be hurt.
You haven't ****ed anyone up- honestly, you were just trying to help, that's your instinct- to help people. It shows you're a good person, you care about people you have never met.

You aren't a freak and you are worthy of life- I know things seem like utter sh*t now but things can change, you won't feel like this forever.

We all care about you xxxx

[Cally]

Some people are always going to be annoyed no matter what you say or do, you havn't done anything wrong, so don't worry about them.

There are far more people that you haven't annyoyed, infact helped on here than one's you have annoyed

[Sato Twilight]

Like Cally said; We all care about you. That ain't changing, either!

[Kitkat :)]

You shouldn't really care about me, its a waste of your energy.
Care about the people I have made worse...
I'm not, I don't deserve life, or this body, it's all just wasted on me.
I'm going to the park now, I'll be on later but i can't guarantee that I'll come back with no scars.
And I'm not a good person, I'm just not a terrible one.
I wish I could just go now...

[Cally]

*cuddles*
we're not going to stop caring, don't punish yourself for nothing, you've done nothing wrong x

[Kitkat :)]

But it's not nothing... Not in my head anyway...
Thanks... But I really feel like I have

[8yearsofthis]

i can relate to how you are feeling as i feel the same all the time and i have had a hard life as people hated me, I was bullied and still get bullied, and I've been depressed and had anxiety my whole life.
and like you iv not been able to keep a relationship on/offline.
you do deserve life we all do.
dont give up.

michael

[Cally]

Try not to listen to them. They don't know what they're saying- you've done nothing wrong, nothing at all. You can overcome them, you don't have to do what they say. xxxxxxxx

[Kitkat :)]

I wish I could not listen to them.
But they overwhelm me.
I'm too weak to overcome them.
Wish I was someone else.

[Cally]

I know how you feel, Lyla won't shut up either.
You aren't weak though, you haven't done it in 2 weeks- that shows strength.
You are doing so well, you don't have to give into them.
*Big Big Hugs*
You can do this x