a "leave of absence"

[airwolf282]

Hi all,

I just read something in a thread which triggered me. I don't want to go into details but I'm a bit upset by some of the content. It wasn't written with any malice or intent to trigger anyone, and I doubt that it would have been a breach of any rules. It was just some of the stuff involved that was really upsetting to me personally. I just feel really upset and I don't want to think about that post right now.

I also think that I am spending too much time here and it would be best if I had a break for a while. I might come on every so often just to see how everyone's going. I will still be on RYL too just not for hours and hours each day.

I also have some personal problems, in my marriage and now my wife is suffering depression and grieving for a family member who passed away more than 6 years ago. I need to help her out a bit more and see that she gets the counselling she needs. We are also fighting a lot and I want to work things out and it doesn't help if I'm always online. I really want to help people by offering support and understanding when I can but I have found that I need to sort things out myself too.

I just don't want to head any further south. I have a course next year I want to do to make myself more employable and open up new options. My wife and I already have plans in place to turn things around in the coming years and setting ourselves realistic goals. The new year will hopefully be the turning point for us. I really want to change my life and be free of SI. I will always have MI, it's a lifelong issue, it runs in my family and I have accepted that but I'm no longer going to let that hold me back and ruin my life. It's going to be a long slow road to recovery but every journey starts with a few small steps. Right now I want to be making those small steps in the very near future.

Like you guys, and like Jess, I am only human and have my own problems to sort out. When I'm better I would love to come back and offer my support to others who are struggling. And I will still continue to be a proud member of RYL and will let you all know how I'm going on my own journey of recovery.

Nathan

[akita]

Take care Nathan

[ravynsoul]

Please do what is best for you!! *hugs* I hope things will be getting better for you and your wife and if you need support please come on here too.

Take care!

[Miss-Dramatic]

Take care nathen xxx

[~*forever_broken*~]

It sounds like you are very committed to taking care of yourself and your family right now Nathan. *hugs* I think that is a very responsible thing to do.
I am sorry there was something here that upset you so much. I am glad that you are seeing the need to take care of yourself for a bit, to step back.

Please take care

Ally

[IcarusDrowning]

Hi Nathan,

You are taking a very big step and sound very committed to your recovery.

Hope you and your family are able to find a better space.

Congrats on making such significant step

Amy