...to have a friend to talk to but i vcant bring myself to share this particular problem i just cant.....but you know how it feels when you listen to everyone else, are the first one everyone calls, turns to and ...i just cant do it anymore...
I told my mom that re
; my dad, that i still care , but i ccat be phoning way up there to talk to the docs for her and sit hpome to wait for their calss..that never come...and their pompous attitude either....
so i said i still care very much but we need to do this second hand; hubby wll call and relay to me info...i just want to unplug a lil and i finally found it in me to do it...or else i would wind myslef back into ICU again, i know that now.....so hopefully he will refer me to the new hosp
.i just thought today tho, the old one is familar, i kKNOW it has lots of therapy and it would be easuier for visits...but i think maybe a new place, a farther distance (in many ways) is what i need right now.....
anwyas sorry...i just..i want to talk ...but i cant.
Not about the really imprtant stuff, not here, not anywhere..wll ther is one place but i cant get into msn to access a certain firend t spk with her and i know she mailed....and its killing me not knowing and not bein able to help her as she isnt so well right now...
i'm so sorry you feel down romp *hugs*
wanting to talk but not feeling like you can is an awful feeling. it's been said already^^, we're not the peson you want to talk to, but we'll always be here if you want to chat.
i think you've done the right thing by taking a step back, as much as you're there for everyone else, you have to take time for yourself. you have to.
In forgiving others, we are not exonerating them. They may not deserve exoneration. Rather, in forgiving others we are giving up our anger over the fact that what happened is not what "should" have happened or that our life is not the way it "should" have been.
It's good that you are taking steps to protect yourself from things that you know can trigger you, like talking to your parents. You know where I am if you want someone to vent to. Take care of yourself hun x
I'm sorry you're not feeling great right now, but I hope that you can sort things out that you need, and take a little time for you. I know from seeing all the posts you put on here that you deserve it.
Take care sweetheart
"And the dish ran away with the spoon. But Hawaii was the only state that would recognize the marriage as legal."
I am also glad you've taken a step backwards from taking care of others. Picking up the phone and talking to a doctor isn't a difficult thing, so why they are asking you to do that for them I don't know!
Can you let on some of the things that are hurting/worrying you? You know we'll listen Honey.
Take care
Lozx xx
You don't have to be a monkey to recognize a banana!
In The Wake Of All The Terror And The Hell, I Am Constantly Reminded All The Crosses That I Bear. You want to see me burn, I am living fire. You will know me by the scars I bear.
See the pain in my eyes See the scars deep inside My God, I'm down in this hole again. Everyone's asking questions No place is safe I'll forfeit resurrection To escape the pain I hate my life.
Eye'm sorry eye'm ugly, eye'm failing eye'm angry, eye'm fuct up eye'm different
Aww sweetie it can be rough when people depend on you and you can't depend on anyone yourself.
But you did the right thing by saying what you needed to say.
Thinking of you.
xxx
You might win one battle.
But know this; I'll win the ****ing war.
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