I know that now and that scares me somuch
im an emotionally unstable BPD depressed person
who is curren tly suicidal and who is now about to leave for hospital for yet more stitches with a blade and patches so I can inflict more pain on my already scarred body
I am so unstable and shakey right now
I just know noone can help me
its not a good feeling to have...that of no hope
rowie....
PLEASE...if you only say two words while at the hospital let them be "IM SUICIDAL!!!!"
please tell them rowie.
they can at least keep you safe.
sweetie...i have a gut feeling that you are pulling away from help...or "she" is.
you are NOT beyond help....but it isnt going to happen overnight.
youve got to try and make the best of each day. dont worry about what you did yesterday or what you may do tomorrow. please try to stay in the moment.
i love you so much and i know youre scared.
xxxx
rowie please let them help, you don't have to be a strong person infront of them. lay it plain, let them see how desparate the situation has got. please. mand x
Mand, South Wales, Full-time working, single mother to 2 scarily independent girls.
I AM A PROUD PLUMERIA SISTER
I've only just read this. I can completely identify with everything you've said and I seriously hope that you've alerted someone to how you feel. Let us know what's going on. *hug*
Please tell someone, write it if you can't say it but please tell someone. You're not beyond help so don't go and give up now, don't do anything, just tell someone and let them do the rest, please.
"...that incremental suicide of turning your life into a dream, to make being awake as similar to sleep as possible. Drowsily, lazily, dry-mouth your way through the day's ceremonies, fumble your way back into the dew-bather you never really left, draped in brown, brown now all around, the haze!" - Russell Brand on drug addiction.
"Si ma êkh gûndo piyiamásko...ándo bírto barruno. Bírto, bírto barruno."
Please tell someone rowie. Things really can get better. I know you're probably fed up of hearing that but things will change one day. You're not beyond help, you just haven't found the right type of help yet. Please keep safe sweetie. Love you lots xxx
Sometimes the way in life seems cloudy...But remember, after the storm comes clear skies
Wanted to say thank you for all your replies..
Things have happened, complicated to explain but that night I spoke to atleast two psych people.....I had totally lost me I was scared of me I couldnt breathe...cant remember much more.
I am seeing my psych nurse tomorrow. Think she has had a meeting with the crisis team and a rep from A&E to see what they can do to help me when I get in that situation as it is happening more and more frequently.
