noone can help me....
 

I know that now and that scares me somuch
im an emotionally unstable BPD depressed person
who is curren tly suicidal and who is now about to leave for hospital for yet more stitches with a blade and patches so I can inflict more pain on my already scarred body

I am so unstable and shakey right now
I just know noone can help me
its not a good feeling to have...that of no hope

I AM EXTREMELY SUICIDAL.

rowie....
PLEASE...if you only say two words while at the hospital let them be "IM SUICIDAL!!!!"
please tell them rowie.
they can at least keep you safe.
sweetie...i have a gut feeling that you are pulling away from help...or "she" is.
you are NOT beyond help....but it isnt going to happen overnight.
youve got to try and make the best of each day. dont worry about what you did yesterday or what you may do tomorrow. please try to stay in the moment.
i love you so much and i know youre scared.
xxxx

rowie please let them help, you don't have to be a strong person infront of them. lay it plain, let them see how desparate the situation has got. please. mand x

try and say those words at the hospital hon, there are people that can help you...
please try
kat x

Hope your ok.
You should have printed that pargraph off and taken it with you.
*hugs*
Stay safe hunni

I've only just read this. I can completely identify with everything you've said and I seriously hope that you've alerted someone to how you feel. Let us know what's going on. *hug*

Please tell someone, write it if you can't say it but please tell someone. You're not beyond help so don't go and give up now, don't do anything, just tell someone and let them do the rest, please.

Please tell someone rowie. Things really can get better. I know you're probably fed up of hearing that but things will change one day. You're not beyond help, you just haven't found the right type of help yet. Please keep safe sweetie. Love you lots xxx

love you rowena x

please tell someone how you are feeling. Dont give in, keep fighting. I hope you are ok *massive hugs*

Please try to get some help while you are there. Please keep fighting and try to get through this. *hugs*

Thank you.......
 

Wanted to say thank you for all your replies..
Things have happened, complicated to explain but that night I spoke to atleast two psych people.....I had totally lost me I was scared of me I couldnt breathe...cant remember much more.
I am seeing my psych nurse tomorrow. Think she has had a meeting with the crisis team and a rep from A&E to see what they can do to help me when I get in that situation as it is happening more and more frequently.

thats all
thank you
xxxx