I'm really struggling with feeling really badly. The past couple days were okay, but yesterday it got bad again and today it's worse. I really just want to end everything, but I can't, which makes me even more angry and resentful. I can't explain it very well, it's just in my head but it causes physical symptoms, like, I shake or sweat or get sick to my stomach.... it's like being ill. And, this is really embarrassing, but like...I sort of am dealing with sexual frustration...like, really bad?
Sometimes, it puts me into these little shaking fits...or frustration fits, it's hard to describe
Nothing really helps it, either...:$ except S.I sometimes.
This has been happening for the past few years, but it's a lot worse in the summer, and the times that I've brought it up to people, like my family they really just like...don't believe me or take me seriously. My mom doesn't even really believe in mental illnesses like depression, etc. It's getting that it's hard to even be at work, on the days that I go. My family basically laugh at me, and think I'm ridiculous. I haven't got one friend or anyone I trust, except my boyfriend, who is really far away from me right now, so it makes it really difficult.
I've been seeing a counselor, and i don't even think that she believes me, sometimes. I get this vibe that, like...she thinks I want attention, or something...
I don't see the point in being here. I just want to be better, but, I feel like no one will believe me, and there isn't really anything that can help me
