Triggering (SI/Suicide) - i'm done.

[SpiralArtist]

hi. well, i'm 38 and would like to talk to someone around the same age range or older it would be nice i have been wanting to cut all week long.really really hard and really really deep and long. i have been since i was 10 about. please, just to know that someone out there understands would mean a lot.
a part of me just wants to die, to disappear but i know that is a fantasy escape coping mechanism but still it's so there, just to be done.
thanks for reading.

[blondiebear]

Hi, I'm 41, hopes that meets your needs? I think it might be even better, i'm in your time zone. Or do you object to people from southern california? I've SId since I was 14.

I understand. Right now I just want to destroy myself because I'm mad at myself for being needy. I want to make my character defects and self hatred visible for the whole world to see. I want to make myself into ground meat. I want to disappear too. I just want to go to bed until the hurting stops. But I know that isn't a solution, i'll just have to deal with it. I got two new books yesterday, two sci-fi series i'm following and I can't even lose myself in those.

PM me if you want. Just a bit of a caution in case I don't reply immediately. I may be going out of town overnight Saturday but I'll check for messages Sat am before we leave and again Sun pm when I get home.

*gives you a hug and a shoulder to cry on and hopes you'll do the same for me*

[Mouse81]

I'm 26...probably won't fit what you want but I'm feeling like you at the moment...PM me if you want to talk!

[pea soup]

hi and warm welcomes to vets!!!

i'll be 31 on monday...so i think youre meeting some folks in your age range. i hope that makes you feel a bit better.

i know the feeling of wanting to disappear.
and ive only been cut free for a few weeks...so my urges are also still there.

the vets here are very supportive and helpful.
i hope you stay with us.
much love to you.
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[chocostashchick]

i'm 23 and i have been si'ing since i was 12, so i'm much younger but i do know for a fact that a ton of the vets are in their 30s or 40s and older, they just haven't seen this, so you are most definitely NOT ALONE
welcome to ryl and welcome to the vets!
xxxooo
Callie

[chocostashchick]

so also i hope that you are staying safe and feeling better
don't be done, don't disappear
that would be too tragic for words and really unfortunate
if you want to distract yourself just come on here - there are even chat rooms
call somebody - doc or friend
you sound pretty low so i hope you can get some help because you deserve it hun
be safe xxxooo