Time to shut you all out again.
Matthew going downhill fast.
I cant talk to you.
Im just gonna post and thats all.
For some reason i cant make this on V2.
One minute im ok and the next im crying and i havent been able to pick up since.
Im sorry
Last edited by Margo : 26-04-2007 at 12:07 AM.
Reason: Become triggering post
~Phoenix~ is my Little Sister of Awesomeness and Self-Delusion :P Bitter Angel is my Mitten Animad is my Top Trump All Im Living For - Is my beautiful and special daughter who isnt called Kim but will moan if i dont add her :P
Matthew, I think you're wonderful and I wish I knew you better.
Please look after yourself, you can get through the rubbish times,
you're a super strong cookie, even if you dont believe it.
Love love xx
Oh sweetheart, I'm so sorry.
Try and get some sleep. I know you aint been getting much recently and that won't help.
It's Thursday tomorrow - get your meds and see your psych.
I know it's hard to talk, and I know it's scary that maybe someone might actually make you feel better. But I'm here. Always have been and always will be.
If posting is the only way that you can communicate your feelings then do it. Please.
Now, remember what a nag I am, and what conversation we had this weekend, and what an annoying little pest I'll always be because I just want you to be okay.
Love you. xxx
I can post advice. I can post silly. I can post anything as long as its not bout me.
I cant even say thank you.
I cant speak. sorry
~Phoenix~ is my Little Sister of Awesomeness and Self-Delusion :P Bitter Angel is my Mitten Animad is my Top Trump All Im Living For - Is my beautiful and special daughter who isnt called Kim but will moan if i dont add her :P
I just punched myself in the face so hard. Dunno how im gonna explain this in the morning. Have a terrible thirst for pain now.
Hit again. Shiit!
Twitchy and angry.
Keep them away.
Ccant speak.
cant speak
wanna break
~Phoenix~ is my Little Sister of Awesomeness and Self-Delusion :P Bitter Angel is my Mitten Animad is my Top Trump All Im Living For - Is my beautiful and special daughter who isnt called Kim but will moan if i dont add her :P
Heh today therapy. Today hardest therapy of my life. Today i broke down and then shut down in therapy. Today i never said a word to anyone. Today the few words i uttered were more than i wanted to say.
Today i tensed so hard in therapy that i got cramp in both of my legs and my hands hurt from tension. Today i told her i never wanted to come back. Today i didnt understand. Today was too much.
Today there is no room for love. I have no heart left. today im so very tired.
~Phoenix~ is my Little Sister of Awesomeness and Self-Delusion :P Bitter Angel is my Mitten Animad is my Top Trump All Im Living For - Is my beautiful and special daughter who isnt called Kim but will moan if i dont add her :P
Today was hard for you hun. *hugs*
But you got through it. Just like you got through all those other hard times. Just like you will get through today. Where all here for you. I know it is hard to accept help or even ask for it. But it only takes on word. From heir things become easier.
I know its not easy for you, but at least try to speak to one person. Even if it is only about rubbish or boobies. Because you know as well as i do that once a on conversation is started, things can change. Moods can alter. People can save you from stupid things, all because they distracted you or made you think or slightly altered your mood.
Try not to shut down hunni.
*hugs tightly*
Want me to massage your cramped legs hun?
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