I just wanted you all to know your not alone. Please take care of yourselves. No one deserves to hurt the way you all do. Please just remember that things will get better. Be patient and kind to yourselves.
*Curls up*
Here's the day you hoped would never come,
Don't feed me violins, just run with me
through rows of speeding cars.
21 on the run, on the run, on the run
From myself, from myself and everyone
I better leave the light on
The darkness, The sweetness, The sadness, The weakness,
O, I need this
Hi, I'm Roli Take Care, Stay Safe, Shout if you need anything
And thanks Roli... I just wanted to know if you're ok cuz you said we're not alone. I'm just wondering how you're doing? You've been such a great support to me these last few days... How are you?
Hey hun,
I just meant your not alone in this, people are here who care and want to support you. Just wanted you to know I'm here for you.
I'm fine.
Bit short of words today, sorry.
Hugs tight.
*Sits quietly in a ball*
Here's the day you hoped would never come,
Don't feed me violins, just run with me
through rows of speeding cars.
21 on the run, on the run, on the run
From myself, from myself and everyone
I better leave the light on
The darkness, The sweetness, The sadness, The weakness,
O, I need this
Hi, I'm Roli Take Care, Stay Safe, Shout if you need anything
Hugs in close. Thank you. Its not ok to not be okay. I have to be okay. Thats what everyone wants. I'm just struggling. I am just so deflated. Thinking a lot about what happened with the OD. How good it felt. Sigh. I am so stupid.
How are you hun? How was shopping? You keeping yourself busy in a good way? Hugs xx
Here's the day you hoped would never come,
Don't feed me violins, just run with me
through rows of speeding cars.
21 on the run, on the run, on the run
From myself, from myself and everyone
I better leave the light on
The darkness, The sweetness, The sadness, The weakness,
O, I need this
Hi, I'm Roli Take Care, Stay Safe, Shout if you need anything
It's been a long day and it's had very little point and I watched a film that just annoyed me and made things worse instead of distracting me, so I decided to write a story and so I wrote a story but it has to be the most depressing story I think I have ever written.
InvestigatorIX- Hugs. I'm sorry you have had such a bad day. Its good that you have tried to distract yourself, thats great. I'm just sorry it didnt help.
What was depressing about your story? Did it release some feelings etc or did it make you realise how bad you felt?
Your in good company here.
Here's the day you hoped would never come,
Don't feed me violins, just run with me
through rows of speeding cars.
21 on the run, on the run, on the run
From myself, from myself and everyone
I better leave the light on
The darkness, The sweetness, The sadness, The weakness,
O, I need this
Hi, I'm Roli Take Care, Stay Safe, Shout if you need anything
Roli, I know exactly how you feel, that it's not okay to not be okay... because of what everyone wants. And also remembering how good an OD feels. Sooo hard. I know those feelings so well. But about the people.. What do they know? Really? Have they ever had to deal with this? Do they know what it's like? Are they really being fair? We can only do so much. I'm glad we have each other here. We are not alone. They have to understand. And the od, it's sooo bad for you.. I was in nursing school for a year and I worked in a hospital and I treated people who killed their livers and it's awful hun, truly scary. Please don't go there. I know it's hard.
Its so hard when you feel defeated. What are you doing today? I did finish shopping, and now I have to take my kids to an appt. Keeping busy. :) making it through. Trying not to think. So far so good. We'll see. I have my ups and downs.
I wrote a story where the main character hurt themselves then later killed themselves. It wasn't graphic (it didn't describe what she did at all), but it was too close to the bone about the things she was feeling. She just didn't care any more about anything, and didn't have any way out.
It's not a nice story at all. It's not a story about me though, even if I feel some of what she felt.
Mum24- yes I am aware of what happens with lots of OD's... but I wasnt thinking of lots. Just one. Just like the last was only supposed to be one. It was supposed to be game over. Apparently I had a spare life... I didnt deserve to have one.
Huggles. Glad your keeping busy.
InvestigatorIX- I'm sorry it was such a sad story, but I know what you mean about it being close to the bone, I often write stuff like that. I have found things from years ago that are still completely true now. Sad.
Are you managing to keep yourself busy? x
Here's the day you hoped would never come,
Don't feed me violins, just run with me
through rows of speeding cars.
21 on the run, on the run, on the run
From myself, from myself and everyone
I better leave the light on
The darkness, The sweetness, The sadness, The weakness,
O, I need this
Hi, I'm Roli Take Care, Stay Safe, Shout if you need anything
I would def try your hardest. I know its hard to get motivated but it may take your mind off things. Worth a try. Maybe a film you know you like, that way you cant be disappointed!
Here's the day you hoped would never come,
Don't feed me violins, just run with me
through rows of speeding cars.
21 on the run, on the run, on the run
From myself, from myself and everyone
I better leave the light on
The darkness, The sweetness, The sadness, The weakness,
O, I need this
Hi, I'm Roli Take Care, Stay Safe, Shout if you need anything
Good idea investigatorix. Sorry you are feeling down.
Roli. I hope you can stay safe and not SH. Don't want you to hurt yourself. Problem with ODs and things is that even though they are meant to be just once they can be so tempting. I'm glad you had a spare life though Roli. I had a spare one too. Got off real easy from what could have been tragic consequences. How are you doing now? What are you drawing?
Take Care, Stay Safe, Shout if you need anything
