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Triggering (SI) - I'm triggered but trying to hold out
The last few days I've been in this constant state of wanting to cut. It really sucks, I'm trying not to do it but it's constantly on my mind. I very nearly bought a small blade the other day - some crappy thing I saw at a bargain store, but I didn't buy it, nor did I use any of the things at home (that are not there for that purpose, but could be used that way regardless).
I'm really, really trying not to give in but it's so hard and it isn't getting any easier! I've gone a couple months (I'm not sure exactly how long, I don't count because then I feel worse about caving in) which is about average for how long I "give up" for. It's like people who quit smoking or drinking (I don't do either, but I'm not passing judgement) for a couple months then start up again for a while before remembering they're meant to be recovering and quit all over again. I keep going on and off, few months off, few months on, few months off, and so on. Sometimes it'll be a bit longer or shorter.
I know I'll cave soon, but I'm really, really trying not to. Does anyone have any ideas? I know I could get support from my parents but I don't really want to bother them as long as I can hold out on my own.
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