I'm triggered but trying to hold out
 

The last few days I've been in this constant state of wanting to cut. It really sucks, I'm trying not to do it but it's constantly on my mind. I very nearly bought a small blade the other day - some crappy thing I saw at a bargain store, but I didn't buy it, nor did I use any of the things at home (that are not there for that purpose, but could be used that way regardless).
I'm really, really trying not to give in but it's so hard and it isn't getting any easier! I've gone a couple months (I'm not sure exactly how long, I don't count because then I feel worse about caving in) which is about average for how long I "give up" for. It's like people who quit smoking or drinking (I don't do either, but I'm not passing judgement) for a couple months then start up again for a while before remembering they're meant to be recovering and quit all over again. I keep going on and off, few months off, few months on, few months off, and so on. Sometimes it'll be a bit longer or shorter.
I know I'll cave soon, but I'm really, really trying not to. Does anyone have any ideas? I know I could get support from my parents but I don't really want to bother them as long as I can hold out on my own.

hey!!
sorry to hear your not felling too good at the moment! you have done really well not SI'ing in a few monthes. i understand the urges can be so hard to ignore but is there anybody else you could talk to besides your parents if you dont want to worry them? friend, sibling.....
maybe you could write down how you are feeling sometimes helps to get it onto paper and out of your head!
the distractions forum here and chat is very good aswell to keep your mind of everything!

PM if you need to talk!!

*hugs*

Hi! I'm so happy that you haven't SIed in a couple of months! that's great! you are definitely my role model. I am sorry to hear about your current state of emotions right now. I definitely know how you feel because I am in it too. I have been keeping clean by the butterfly project, which I saw on this website. You draw a butterfly on the place where you want to SI and if it washes away without a cut on it then it lives. I drew like a whole mural with butterflies and flowers and hearts on my arm. Maybe you can try that? you can definitely pm me if you want! feel better!