A recovery pledge. (I plan to post any progress here.)

Olive branch · 27-04-2009, 07:33 PM

Hello, I realise that this post may seem a slightly odd idea; so I shall explain.

Tomorrow is the 28th of April, this would have been Isaac Jay Willis' 18th birthday. He never got there.
I loved him dearly and wanted to show him something special this year on what would have been one of his most important birthday's he would have ever had. I considered lighting candles or writing for him but I found something that he would have needed more.

He didn't get there- I pledge that I will. I will be 18, 21, 30, 40. I pledge that I will stay alive in his memory.

Starting from tomorrow I shall count my days without self harm (including through eating disorders) I will record it and I plan to use RYL bracelets to mark the time passed.

I want to be better.
I want to live.
I want to say on my 18th birthday "I made it."

A note to Isaac: I could never have got this far without your love, even after death.

Sophie.

Katiee · 27-04-2009, 08:24 PM

Awhhh, that's a really sweet idea! :] xo.

one lie at a time · 27-04-2009, 08:46 PM

That's a really nice idea. :] Good for you, too. xx

Olive branch · 04-05-2009, 07:21 AM

Well today is one week, it's not much but it's a start.

whoknows · 04-05-2009, 11:31 AM

That is such a wonderful thing to do for you, and for his memory!! I bet he'd be so proud of you!!

Keep up the fantastic work. There's a world waiting for you out there and it's not as dark and cold as you might imagine.

XXXX

crazykat · 04-05-2009, 11:34 AM

That's a really lovely idea. Well done so far on the week, you are doing amazingly well. I am sure he would be proud of you

Tuesday · 04-05-2009, 04:41 PM

Great idea and good luck with it :)

Only Distraction · 04-05-2009, 08:46 PM

Well done Sophie.
Keep going, for Isaac x

Olive branch · 05-05-2009, 10:27 PM

Thank you so much everyone. It really does make a difference just to hear I'm doing the right thing.

Olive branch · 07-05-2009, 07:19 AM

Day 10: no slip ups.

(Technically day 17 but I'm going to stick with from the 28th as my start date.)

I love you guys.

Kuwairo · 08-05-2009, 04:11 PM

You're doing really well Sophie.
It's so good that you're doing this in his memory, he would be so proud.

Dolphin · 10-05-2009, 08:45 AM

hope its all still going well and well done! its such a nice idea :)

Olive branch · 10-05-2009, 09:55 AM

It is still going- if not well. I am now 13 days (20 techincally) free and am finding it very difficult. But, it's not for me as much as for him. I can draw some strength from that.

Sonic Dreams · 10-05-2009, 12:12 PM

you're doing amazing :]

you're a much stronger person than i am.

keep on truckin'.
x

Nicholas · 10-05-2009, 03:04 PM

That's a really brilliant and brave thing to pledge =).

Olive branch · 12-05-2009, 08:01 PM

I made three weeks.

kona · 12-05-2009, 08:09 PM

your doing such a wonderful thing.

Well done for getting to 3 weeks, its a fantastic achievement!

Olive branch · 14-05-2009, 07:51 PM

I'm sorry. I slipped up, I'm going to try again.

Sonic Dreams · 14-05-2009, 07:54 PM

-hugs-

don't forget that, slip-ups aside, you've been doing really well.

best of luck in the coming days/weeks/months/years.
x

Olive branch · 17-05-2009, 11:15 AM

Today, I am starting again. I did three weeks, I am now aiming for 6 weeks as my next goal.