Hey
starshine,
There is some information that can be found on flashbacks on the
main site &
here that maybe of some help to you. I suggest trying different methods to work out what is best for you. By the sounds of it you did an amazing job of moving forward and I would therefore please don't try to let this get to you too much, you did it once so you can do it again. Once this has passed you can get back on track in your own time, yes?
Have you spoken to a professional about your sleep? Because after a while your body will get to a state where it will become more and more irrational if you are unable to sleep. It is a vital part of everyday life and at the very least your doctor should be able to prescribe you some sort of medication for a temporary measure. Ideally it would probably be better if you sought professional counselling though. I don't know if you have before or not; but either way it should be of help to you, even if it is only for a few months which will then turn into the odd check up every now and again. It should still be of help to you.
It maybe hard to do, it's also alot easier said than done, but please try to remember that you are safe. Maybe carry something small which you can hold and play around with while you feel unsafe will help? Preferably something soft and nice to touch, maybe even something of sentimental value which was given to you as a present by someone you feel safe with or can trust.
Also, do you know what has started these flashbacks to start again? Possibly you are currently over-stressed with the time of year and maybe any changes in your life. You're 16 and a student according to your profile, so there's bound to be extra pressure put on you before this up-coming holidays to perform 'better' and get the work done. There maybe up-coming exams after the holiday or even within the next six months which you are been reminded of - all of this will have an effect and will make it just that little harder for you, but it's more than likely a combination which is getting to you. Try to take it easy for a while and take care of yourself, please.
If you need someone to talk to then my PM box is always open, PM me anytime. (:
*hugs*
Take Care,
Josh.
xxx
