I wish I knew... my boyfriend seems to think I do know but just won't tell him... but that's not true, I honestly really am not sure why I get so scared and down and stuff when alone...
I guess the obvious answer would be that I have suffered abuse in the past... but I'm not sure that's solely to blame... and I really need to stop blaming that and HIM for everything...
I just don't feel safe when alone... I feel scared... I start having thoughts and almost visions of people not returning... start thinking that now the person has had some time without me they've realised that they are better off that way and so won't come back... or that something will happen to them... I have to lock the door and can't leave out of fear... I can't have a shower when no-ones in myflat as I'll have to be naked and I start thinking someone may break in or something... I have issues eating when alone (I don't think I have an ED, just can't eat if no-one else is as start to feel guilty :/ )...
I hate the way I am
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