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angelmillennium666 · 05-10-2008, 05:47 AM

i'm tired.
of fighting
of losing
of being alone
of struggling
of not fitting in anywhere

i just want peace

i wish i ran on batteries -the cheap ones that last for a few minutes then die...
i'd never replace them

i can't wait for calm -i don't even remember what it's like to be calm or happy or anything but sad,lonely and angry all day every day.

je me deteste.

if i only had the nerve.

i can't stop crying.

~KemicalRain~ · 05-10-2008, 06:08 AM

i cant really say much but i have seen you around the forums and you are amazing you really are... and you deserve to be happy and i am sure that time will come one day you just need to fight through these feelings... my pm box will always be open if you need me and i hope you feel better soon :)
peacew love and good happiness stuff
darian

Stellata · 05-10-2008, 10:36 AM

Feeling lonely and alienated is really painful. I know.

What is it that you struggle with the most?

Miss-Dramatic · 05-10-2008, 10:39 AM

*hugs* im sorry you feel this way. Whats causing it ?? You try not to think of anything bad and contrate on the good things.
Hope this helps even if its just a little bit
xxx PM if ya ever need to yalk xxx

Porcelain Child · 05-10-2008, 11:12 AM

I am sorry things are tough for you right now... and i know its hard to keep fighting, but please do... cos it will be worth it... it will get better...

What is happening in your life right now, that you feel you want to die so much....

*squishes*

Claire...

Cazki · 05-10-2008, 01:39 PM

*Cuddles you* Im sorry your having a hard time and for the way you feel. What is it that your struggling with? Whats happening for you? Can you talk to us about whaty is thats making youi feel this way? Do you have any idea of what it is thats making you feel this way? I know its very draining to keep fighting and that it feels better to just give up because its not worth keep fighting but please dont give up, you can get through this, things wont be like this forever. Do you have proffessional support? Do you have anyone who your close to that you could confide in about how your feeling? Does anyone else know that your struggling an that your feeling this way? Keep fighting through this, we are all here for you.

Take care all the best Ian

angelmillennium666 · 06-10-2008, 01:40 AM

i have no one to talk to in 'real life' (absolutely no offence is intended by that, I know there are so may of you on here who respond to me when i am struggling and i am grateful for that -i truly am)

...it's just hard to not have anyone to talk with face2face or even on a phone -not that i think i'd actually call or talk to anyone when i'm struggling, if there was anyone...

i just feel so lonely.
i feel unloveable, unlikeable -even.

i can't stand me -so why would anyone else want to be around me?

Stellata · 06-10-2008, 07:47 AM

I understand those feelings, they can be so isolating.

What might your options be of face to face support?

angelmillennium666 · 07-10-2008, 05:07 AM

non-existant

Stellata · 07-10-2008, 07:07 AM

How so?

angelmillennium666 · 08-10-2008, 02:08 AM

i have no support...

BoundNoMore · 08-10-2008, 02:10 AM

*cuddles you lots*

Stellata · 08-10-2008, 09:09 AM

You may have no support right now, but that doesn't mean you can't find some for yourself.