Triggering (Suicide) - No point

[The War Doctor]

Go to school, go home, go to bed, repeat.

Thats my life in nine words. I could disappear and nobody would notice. If I were to stay in my room until I die, no-one would care. I doubt anyone would come to my funeral (assuming they look for the body), I mean, nobody comes to my birthday parties, and nobody ever invites me to hang out with them... and when I invite people to hang out, they always say they have plans with friends. So what does that make me, if not a friend? It really hurts.

I'm not going to kill myself, so don't worry, but I feel like theres no purpose to my life... I guess I just feel really lonely, I dunno. I read "The Outsider" by Albert Camus a while ago and the main character seemed horribly familiar.. someone who feels no emotion, has no real friends other than everyday acquaintances... am outsider..

I don't even know what I'm getting at here, I just feel totally pointless.

[SuperEMY]

People would notice if anything like that happened, and people would definitely care. Sometimes our lives become too much of a routine and it becomes a very mood-dampening thing. There's not a lot that we can do about this until something changes, whether we make that change ourselves or just let it happen on it's own.

It sounds as though these people aren't true friends, because they could atleast invite you out with them. Maybe you could make some new friends at school? If there's people you haven't spoken to, you could get to know them and form new friendships.

I hope you start to feel better soon.
xxx

[Misunderstood.]

I won't be of much help here, replying but I just wanted to say that I've felt exactly the same way you described in your thread, for quite some time whilst depressed but there will come a time when you realise you are more to the people around you and your family than you realise.
I'm really sorry you are feeling so bad or so "nothing" atm. I don't know what to say to make you feel better other than the fact that things will change for the better, in time; I promise.
I personally think you need to take time out for you and your recovery and not be interested in how other ppl behave or don't behave towards you.

Catherine xxxx

[Cazki]

*Cuddles you* I am sorry you feel like this, i really feel for you because i have felt like this myself many times in the past. I know whats its like. The friends that you describes do not sound like real friends real friends would invite you out, im sorry about the way they treat you. Alot of people care about you, but often when you feel low you feel that no one cares about you but they do. We all care about you so much. If anything happened to you it would upset alot of people. Your a very valuable member who alot of us care about. Things wont be like this forever they will get better. Do you have any support? I really hope you feel better soon. Please keep talking to us.

Take care best wishes Ian

[Tig]

*Gentle hugs*

I would notice you were gone. I know we haven't spoken before but I see you around the site and I like to read posts by you, so I would notice if you were gone. I know that doesn't mean much but please remember, however hard things are and however badly you are being treated, RYL will always be here for you and we all care very much for you.

I can relate so I really feel for you right now. If you ever want a chat you can always PM me,

Lotti x

[All I'm Living For]

i would notice if you died (or suddenly disappeared) and you can bet that i'd come to your funeral (long way to come and expensive but i'd be there).
i know how you feel Conor i really do, you're not alone *hugs*
thinking of you
xx