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Suicidal
I'm feeling really vulnerable and down right now.
I don't feel like I can cope with anything.
It seems like everything in my life is going wrong, and everything keeps happening at once. It keeps chipping at me, day after day, and it doesn't stop.
I'm afraid when it finally does, there won't be anything left.
It started a few weeks ago, when my fiance got into a car accident. I couldn't even leave work to make sure he was okay.
Bills are piling up, especially because the vehicle he was driving didn't have liability insurance, because it was in storage (our other vehicle broke down and he was just driving it for the day).
I'm about to lose the third house I've lived in - in 3 months. I don't think I can handle living in the trailer again, with my fiance, our dogs and our cat.
My parents keep telling me everything I'm doing wrong.
I've lost all of my friends, so I have no one to talk to. The only friend I have left is drunk 24/7 and I can't understand what he says half the time. I'm afraid for him, but how can I help him, when I can barely keep myself alive?
My weight is really stressing me out, and it seems that no matter what I do lately, I can't lose any weight, even though I need to.
I feel like everything is falling apart, and that no one seems to care. I try to talk to my fiance about things, but he is going through his own problems, and I don't want to stress him more than he already is.
I don't have enough money for counseling or anything else... I barely have enough money to keep food on the table.
I really don't know what is happening, what I did to make everything go wrong.
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