i really want this trip to go well

[xxjuliexx]

i don't even know if this goes here.
i'm flying home tomorrow to see my family i haven't been home in 19 months. and i'm kinda scared. ok not kinda scared i am scared.
i will be in the same house as my father, and my mummy
and i am scared i will set him off and make him angry and ruin the whole trip.
i am going back to my childhood home where i spent half the time in my bedroom and the other half sitting on the toilet crying.
i really want this trip to go well.
i really want this trip to go well.
and i don't know how to make sure it does, i just want to relax on this holiday. but i remember what it was like. the only plus side if he kicks me out now at least i have somewhere to go.
i really want this trip to go well.

so what do i want from this post.
hugs maybe, i thinks thats all i can really ask for.
it's my job to not screw this up

feel free to move this or delete it.

thanks

[Zedebee]

I'm sending you.lots of hugs.
And I'm also curious about why you're even going there in the first place considering how bad the situation is. You clearly deserve much better than what they are offering.