I'm really struggling tonight.
I have suicidal thoughts and I think I will act on them if I don't get help.
I'm under HTT twice a day at the moment and they just came. They said how are you and I said I'm fine. I don't know why I said that because I'm not fine, I'm really struggling.
I need some hugs and support.
I have a curse on me and it's hurting my friends. I can't see one of them getting ill and that's all my fault. I'm such a bad person.
I don't think I can ring HTT because they would ask why I didn't say something when they came round. I could maybe call them in a couple of hours.
I really wanna OD.
The average,
well-adjusted adult
gets up at 7.30am feeling just plain terrible.
Call me Kate.
I have dyslexia so please excuse my poor spelling and sometimes poor understanding.
Your not a horrible person you are having a rough time. I would ring HTT - who cares if you didn't mention it before... Your mentioning it now! Please get some support
I don't understand myself... I'm searching for the person I am, and the person I want to be..
You're not a horrid person at all. You're a person who is struggling alot and would want someone to help her. Giving them a call is responsible. And it shows that you know you need help. Okay you may not have told them what was wrong when they came out but that's no reason why you can't call them and explain how you really feel. Taking a OD. Doesn't suggestlike you want hhelp but from the post you actually do want help. Let them help you sugar x
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Apparently I've been told homicidal feelings are quite common and normal when distressed. It's the genuine likelihood of acting on it that is important: will you really kill someone?
Thanks guys. I'm still waiting for HTT to get here. I'm gonna tell them my feelings. Thanks again for your support.
I'm so alone today. None of my friend are available to meet so I am just gonna be sitting in the house alone.
I'm thinking about trying to go back to uni on Monday and see how I do. If it's too hard I'm gonna leave and do a OU course instead.
The average,
well-adjusted adult
gets up at 7.30am feeling just plain terrible.
Call me Kate.
I have dyslexia so please excuse my poor spelling and sometimes poor understanding.
Thanks guys.
Htt didn't go very well. The plumber came at the same time as htt so htt refused to talk to me because there was a stranger in the house. They just gave me my meds and left. So not helpful.
They are coming tonight again but I don't trust them because they have told the government that i'm making people ill with my curse and now the government are monitoring my house. There sitting outside and have put hidden cameras everywhere.
The average,
well-adjusted adult
gets up at 7.30am feeling just plain terrible.
Call me Kate.
I have dyslexia so please excuse my poor spelling and sometimes poor understanding.
Your thoughts are telling you that there are people watching you but that may not be the case. Make sure you take your meds and talk this out with someone. Don't drop out of Uni cos you need that for a stable job in time. You will get through this just be confident in yourself.
It became like a sort of prison. Encased in a silver shell, words so full of bleeding need spilled like drops on dry leaves. And all the while laughter prevailed a long way from here. Nowhere land, nowhere time, nowhere space.
It became like a sort of prison. Encased in a silver shell, words so full of bleeding need spilled like drops on dry leaves. And all the while laughter prevailed a long way from here. Nowhere land, nowhere time, nowhere space.
