We went on a field trip first period.... I found a piece of glass in the road. I broke it, and took a shard with me.
I have second period off.... I'm sitting in the library... I've cut myself with it. Damn it. I need this...why?! ****
We want it, we want, we want a reason to live. We need it, we need, we need more than this. Going through this life, looking for angels. People passing by, looking for angels. Walking down the streets, looking for angels. Everyone I meet, looking for angels.
Really sorry to hear you're struggling. Have you sought medical attention? With something like dirty glass you probably should have it looked at due to infection risk.
Is there anything in particular that made you want to cut?
I will love myself despite the ease with which I lean toward the opposite.
I'm still at school, so no medical attention from the nurse. It's glass from a beer bottle. They're minor cuts, just a lot of them.
I wanted to see the blood, I felt really excited that I found the glass. I just wanted to see blood.
What's wrong with me?
We want it, we want, we want a reason to live. We need it, we need, we need more than this. Going through this life, looking for angels. People passing by, looking for angels. Walking down the streets, looking for angels. Everyone I meet, looking for angels.
Nothing's wrong with you. I know a lot of people who SH just to see blood, I know I used to do it a lot just to prove to myself that I was real/still alive.
What time do you finish school? I'd be exhausted if I was there this late lol. Could you go to the nurse, or someone confidential. Glass from a used beer bottle could carry infection which you don't want.
Is there anyone at school or at home you could talk to about this?
I will love myself despite the ease with which I lean toward the opposite.
My mom was suspicious because I put a giant bandaid on it. I made an excuse.
I'm so stupid. I just want to do it again. I hid the glass under my dresser.
It works so well
We want it, we want, we want a reason to live. We need it, we need, we need more than this. Going through this life, looking for angels. People passing by, looking for angels. Walking down the streets, looking for angels. Everyone I meet, looking for angels.
Your not stupid. Can you get rid of the glass so it doesn't tempt you? Also I will attach a list of alternative things you could try that you might find helpful
"Recovery is something that you have to work
on every single day and it's
something that doesn't
get a day off."
hi can you make sure the wound is nice and clean you dont want to get an infection hun. im so sorry you are finding things hard right now but dont call yourself stupid you are trying your best <3 try and get rid of the glass if you can and maybe use some of the distractions if you can
have you anyone you can talk to about all of this a friend or gp
A couple people know how bad it's gotten with the glass and alcohol and stuff. It's all a distraction.
Just feeling down and alone
We want it, we want, we want a reason to live. We need it, we need, we need more than this. Going through this life, looking for angels. People passing by, looking for angels. Walking down the streets, looking for angels. Everyone I meet, looking for angels.
yeah, I think so...... I just know i'm going to slip up again
We want it, we want, we want a reason to live. We need it, we need, we need more than this. Going through this life, looking for angels. People passing by, looking for angels. Walking down the streets, looking for angels. Everyone I meet, looking for angels.
Could you chuck out the item you used to self harm? Even if that only really delays self harm for the ten minutes it takes to procure some more, it just forces you to delay a little and think about it a bit more before acting on urges.
I can understand wanting to see blood. Is it really worth getting embroiled in self harm for though? It's not the same, but drawing on yourself with red pen can be a helpful substitute. Also you could try scribbling so hard on a piece of paper in a notebook that it rips- I did it once and managed to make it look a lot like a wound and it really helped that part of me that likes to see blood/wounds.
I don't know if I can get rid of it....sometimes I actually plan to cut, and sometimes it's on impulse, but I have to have that reassurance of knowing it's there... ugh i sound so stupid i know
We want it, we want, we want a reason to live. We need it, we need, we need more than this. Going through this life, looking for angels. People passing by, looking for angels. Walking down the streets, looking for angels. Everyone I meet, looking for angels.
It's not stupid. What about putting it in a place that is harder to get to then? For example locking it in box. That way it is still there but it makes you think a little before you use it
"Recovery is something that you have to work
on every single day and it's
something that doesn't
get a day off."
We want it, we want, we want a reason to live. We need it, we need, we need more than this. Going through this life, looking for angels. People passing by, looking for angels. Walking down the streets, looking for angels. Everyone I meet, looking for angels.
