is it okay?

[markh75]

... to be a failure in life (life??)? To be the outcast, the company idiot, a waste of space, the one that no-one will help but everyone else expects me to help them?
Is it okay , and acceptable to be treated by others as a non person? to be ignored, walked over, and disregarded?

If it IS, then i dont want to be a part of this so called world anymore. i think its time i taught people a lesson, give them a real fright. For too long now i have been saying i'm going to quit, and end it all; i think that its high time i did it. Maybe theyd sit up and take notice!

Nah i dont think that would happen, i'll just go quietly hopefully in my sleep. people probably wont even notice. Theres nothing i'd like better than be dead, instead of being the worlds biggest waste of space. Maybe i'll go to work tomorrow, and crash my van, do it that way! I hope no-one tries to resuscitate me. i dont want that. I'm in BIG trouble at work anyway, so this would be a suitable end for me.
life is not precious. its hell, its cruel, its vicious and hates twats like me.

[Aquifolia]

Not conforming to social expectations does not make you a failure. To teach people a lesson would be to accept the life that you have and all the flaws and not care what they think about it.

[markh75]

what does that mean? i am a failure, i dont understand. its what people make me into, i am powerless against it. i wouldnt know how to fight against it so i just accept that i am the idiot. life taught me long ago, that i am a waste of space. this is why i find my life so unpalatable. i have been dumped on all my life, and made to feel substandard, but now i am tired of it and want it to end.

i feel so sad, sad that my life amounts to a big fat 0, i dont know what to do, or how to change it, because i have always been the local idiot, the family idiot, the work, idiot. i dont want to live now, i've had enough.

[PassedExpectations]

people can't make you into anything unless you let them. you feel powerless, but you do have power if you choose to use it.

and you sound far from an idiot... i mean, just in terms of your vocabulary you sound very intelligent