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Looking back at the pain makes me realize how strong I've become
In my head I was thinking about what few words would sum up each age for me since my teen years. And in doing so, it just further impressed on me how far I've come and what I've worked hard for.
15 - fanaticism and darkness
16 - isolation and ambition
17 - toxic friendships and depression
18 - medicated, despair, and apathy
19 - out of control
20 - abuse and insanity
21 - abuse and heartbreak
22 - rebirth and independence
23 - fulfilled and adventure
24 - well I just turned 24, so we will have to see. But I am now moving out of state for the first time after being accepted to a phd program, so it's looking good :)
So as you can see, the only even partially positive one in the first seven years is 16, and even that was very double edged. Yet by choosing to take control of my life, I was able to turn myself around and have an amazing two years. Not that everything has been perfect, but I've been able to control my life and make it overall positive even when I struggle. I'm just so amazed I'm no longer unhappy and miserable like I was for so long, and that I know I'm strong enough now to deal with whatever challenges I face. :)
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