Hi Krissa and welcome to RYL!
Here's a link to the
Eating Disorders Forum (if you haven't already found it) which is where you'll be able to get the most support I think. They really are a lovely bunch of people over there and hopefully they'll be able to show that although it may be hard sometimes recovery is possible and that one day you'll get there. I hope with the RYL's help it can be sooner rather than later for you. If you ever have any questions Krissa or you ever need to chat feel free to PM me at anytime hon.
Take care
Kiran
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