Support for Karessa (CigarettesAndLipstick, previously PerfectMess)
Karessa is a bit anxious to post a thread herself at the moment, so she has asked me to do it instead.
She's currently not in a very good place, she has relapsed into everything, she's having suicidal thoughts and isn't very safe with herself at the moment. She says she's not feeling real, having paranoid thoughts and has hurt herself.
She wants to go IP to get help, because on her first trip to IP she didn't give her all. She's scared that if she doesn't get it it'll all get worse, she says she's at a loss of what to do. She's going to try to talk about it at her appointment tomorrow but she doesn't know what will happen.
I realise I've not spoken to you directly Karessa but I've seen you around, I'm sorry that you're struggling and are in such a tough place.
I hope your appointment goes well tomorrow, being as honest with them as you're able to will help, if you can manage that. You can get through this, I know it might not feel like that now but you can find a way through all this.
I am thinking of you Hun and I am so sorry to hear you are strugglen. Hopefully you get the treatment you need as you deserve to get better. Sorry I'm low on words. I'm always here if you need a chat. Thinking of you, take care xo
Locked in, Buried under my skin
Riding on the whispers, Restless in the wind
Hunted, I can feel it coming
Keep me under cover in what could of been.
love you sweetheart. sorry i just got to uni/online now :/
“The good things don’t always soften the bad, but vice-versa, the bad things don’t necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant.”
“Nobody important? Blimey, that’s amazing. Do you know, in nine hundred years of time and space I’ve never met anyone who wasn’t important before.”
“If it’s time to go, remember what you’re leaving. Remember the best. My friends have always been the best of me.”
*Hugs thight*
I'm so sorry you feel this way,but there's still hope.You're young,beautiful,smart,you have the future ahead you.I know it can be a scary thought,but think at all the oportunities and chances it hides,if you just look for them a bit.
People come and go and most of them don't deserve you,even if you feel the other way around.The only thing you can do is learn from mistakes and pick the best people for you.There is no point in crying over someone who has let you down.It's not worth it.
I wish you all the best&we care alot about you.Smile,pretty girl!
You can buy me with a coffee,I'm so cheap. Got bitten fingernails&a head full of past;Got a broken heart&your name on my cast.
&&I wanted her to tell me that she will never wake me.
thank you guys for the support/ hugs.
even though I feel I don't deserve any....
I was unable to see my med. therapist about going IP/getting on different meds and saw my general therapist instead. the session was completely emotionally draining because of the topic {which she chose based on my answer to the question "how do you feel today?"}
currently I'm dealing with my grand parents' health being completely poorly and both of them needing hospitalization, my college is screwing me over on financial aid so I owe tuition that I am unable to pay, because I am unemployed.
I apparently have a month to find a job or I'm homeless
my "father" will not pay for my medication/ therapy etc. {even though he says he will/has there is no record of such} and "can't"/ won't help with college/ therapy because he "doesn't have the money to pay for it" due to grandparents hospital stuff and yet he can find the time and money to completely go out and buy random crap to re-do his youngest daughters room to her liking..
clearly I'm the f*ck up child that's a mistake and they only wish to be rid of me.
on top of my mothers b/f blaming me for the reason my mother didn't have a good birthday. "thanks for ruining your mothers birthday all she does is cry about being afraid of losing you so again thanks a lot"
and I'm trying to apply for Medicaid, Disability Grant{s} and SSI
because I'm unable to get a job atm and desperately need some sort of income.
I just exhausted in every sense of the word with my entire "family" and everything {with the exception of my mother and a few others}
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍
