I hope that Tamo can get the help she needs. I'm sorry to hear that things got so bad for her.
PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
I hope she is ok... you did the right thing. having a friend that hates you and is alive then having a friend that loves you but is dead :/
I know thats a litle blunt, but it is true
My understanding from my local police is that Tamobhuuta is hopefully now out of immediate danger.i do not know much more than that but it would not be my place to say anyway.From the little contact I have managed to have with her since [i was at a computer course till now and i think shes been busy] she still seems very low and i am still very worried.i just hope she will get the support she now needs.
Tamobhuuta - i love you and im still so sorry for doing this but i had to.If you want me to take this down later i will but i was very worried for you this morning and felt others should know how you were.i have never been so relieved as to when the policeman turned up at my computer course and told me you were ok.Please try and stay safe and be honest with your team.i love you.i know you probably feel you cant trust me now and i understand that totally but i am here.
im sure Tamobhuuta would appreciate any kind words when she manages to come back.She is really struggling right now.Thanks everyone.
xx xx
i do not always manage to be around but i wish you all the very best - love and luck to you all!
hi. can i post here for help? i am feeling unsafe and i feel really bad for worrying Sleepless so much, and you guys. i didn't mean for that to happen. i should keep my mouth shut. it's been a confusing and frightening day and i could really use any support going spare. i know it's a cheek asking but i am quite afraid right now because i feel trapped. yeah, help would be great. or if i should find another way to Sleepless can use this thread for support, just tell me (anyone) and i'll delete this post. i'm sorry if i end up deleting this post anyway, or if i ask Sleepless to delete the thread in the future, i don't mean to insult anyone, least of all Sleepless, but the fear is quite bad at the moment.
i didnt create this thread for me hun.i created it for you and out of concern for you.Its not me who needs the support!
im sorry its been such a frightening and difficult day for you.i know thats my fault cos i rang the police but i was just so worried about you.As ive said to you though i would understand you being angry and not trusting me - i know how scary, horrible, frightening and sometimes betraying it can feel to have the police called on you from my own past experiences.i would not blame you if you hated me but i just panicked and i dont want to lose you.
i know the police here were very concerned for your welfare too and im worried your still so unsafe.Please keep talking to us.
i understand if its not really me you want to talk to right now though.
i love you.And i am so glad your still here.
Also i hope you keep the thread cos i think you really need it but if you ever want it deleted tell me and i will straight away [or a mod if im not online].
i do realise i posted this without contacting you first earlier.But i couldnt get in contact with you at that point as i knew you would have to see the police and people and i was out for the day and wanted people to know what was going on in case you needed more support.
Please keep the thread and please let us support you.You desperately need it but it is your decision whether we keep this up here cos i wouldnt usually post so much about people without their agreement.
i know you are currently feeling very bad.i know you say your crisis team closes at 9pm.Could you ring their number and see if they give you another contact to ring out of hours as they should do?i am very worried for you.
Thanks everyone.Can we please all continue to support Tamobhuuta.i will leave her to do the rest of the talking cos its not my place but i know she still has detailled suicidal thoughts and todays situation was very serious - she needs us right now.
Thank you all.
xx xx
i do not always manage to be around but i wish you all the very best - love and luck to you all!
Hey Sweetheart. I hadn't seen you around for a while and was worried things might be getting worse.
I can't speak for Sleepless but I'm sure she won't mind you using this thread for support. Just glad to hear that you are at least safe for now.
It would be brilliant if you felt able to talk to us and not worry about deleting posts or anything. Though I understand you do struggle with leaving them up.
I'm really glad that you posted for support Tam, I'm sorry that you're feeling so unsafe. Are you with anyone right now? Not sure where you are... If you're not with anyone maybe that would be a good idea. Can you think of anything to make you safer ie: getting rid of blades, tablets etc.
Like sleepless said, I think that contacting the crisis team or even a helpline would be a really good idea, it sounds like you need to talk.
Please keep posting, you need the support and we are here to help.
Thinking of you, please hang in there though I know it's far far from easy.
xxx
i understand if its not really me you want to talk to right now
though.
don't worry, i still enjoy talking to you and you are such a help. honestly. but i do not want to put the burden just on you, that isn't fair. better to spread it out lol! it's never been fair and it was wrong of me to tell the truth and put you to such worry.
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i am alone in my room right now (i forbade my mother from sleeping on my floor in case i needed to hurt myself.) but most of my family are in the house, which -should- hold me back from doing anything too stupid. the only dangerous thing i can think of in my room is blades but i need them. maybe i could phone the MH line but it feels very risky. everyone seems to be against me and i don't know where to turn. they say this is symptoms but head says it's real, why would my head lie to me?
Your head would lie because unfortunately thats what brains do!
I know it seems strange to believe but its true, sometimes you have to trust that other people may know best. Everyone is not against you hun, certainly not people on here anyway.
i do believe that people here at least wouldn't lie to me. but i worry the organisation will get to you too, persuade you to work against me. maybe some people's minds play tricks on them ubt this seems to real, so important, the world screams betrayal at everything i do.
It sounds like you are going through such a distressing time, please try to keep yourself safe by talking on here, creating a safe environment for yourself and perhaps if you feel okay doing so, you may be able to ask someone in your house to check on you every so often?
i dont know if that will help you, i know sometimes those things can help me though. Stay safe and keep posting for support xx
You werent unfair to me at all and i always prefer to hear the truth.
i really hope it goes well with the mental health line.Please do try to call them and can you at least try and put the blades out of sight or high up out of reach or something?
Have you told the crisis team or M your worker about how you think there is an organisation etc and everyones out to get you etc?
You must be sick of me today sorry!i will leave you alone promise.
xx xx
i do not always manage to be around but i wish you all the very best - love and luck to you all!
Tam *sends safe hugs* I am sorry things are so hard and scary for you right now. Please try and keep talking here for support. Lots of people care about you (here and in real life) I agree with Rainbow, maybe if possible you could ask someone to check on you throughout the night? Remember you can also call Samaritines 24/7 if you feel bad and need to reach out. Maybe make a 'safe zone' in your room, & have some activities in it, like a book, a writing pad and pen so you can draw/write, relaxing music and something that comforts you? then hopefully you'll fall asleep and be safe & tomorrow maybe you could contact your crisis team (I realise it's to late now-although if you ring now you might get a contact number for somewhere that will be available.
Look after yourself x
Life can be beautiful if you let it.
Step back, breathe and take it in
thank you for your support. my mum did check on me during the night - she insisted or else she would sleep in my room lol. and i took books and stuff to be with me so i would have alternatives to SH, which stopped me doing anything too stupid.
i didn't call the MH line in the end as by the time i made up my mind to i was too tired to talk. maybe i can call the crisis team today if the thoughts get too bad again.
that is a good suggestion about the blades but i feel nervous of having them too far away. they make me feel safe, so i kept them close. i have told M and the crisis team about the organisation but they just insist these are symptoms of an illness which is lies lies lies.
Sleepless, i never get sick of you, you are a great help :)
makedamnsure, thank you for the reassurance that you are safe from them. i just hope you all are, and are vigilant.
(i haven't forgotten your names but i thought seeing as i would prefer everyone to call me my screen name, to make it harder for the organisation, i would call you your screenames too, keep it simple!)
they tell me different things. the organisation tell me thye are angry a certain people and to get rid of them. the others tell me to get rid of the people watching me and plotting to hurt me, and to kill myself to escape them. then my head tells me to pnish myself. i ALWAYS ignore the ones who tell me to hurt others, but not so much the ones that tell me to hurt myself.
the crisis team are going to ring at some point to say when they can come out again. i have to keep taking their stupid drugs, and they said the doctor might change them if/when she sees me.
only been up an hour and a half, already SH so why do i want to do it again so soon?? it doesn't change anything even though it gives me relief. i fail.
I have absoloutly no advice at all but i wanted to let you know that i'm thinking of you... I hope you're more safe very soon. It seems you have many people that care about you very much! Stay strong, you can get through this...
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And there will come a time, you'll see, with no more tears. And love will not break your heart, but dismiss your fears...
