Hello. I'm not sure where to start, so I guess a quick rundown?
I'm new to all this, so I hope it's all right to be cagey and not give a name. I was diagnosed with depression about six weeks ago, but I have struggled with depressive feelings, self-harm and gender confusion/dysphoria for a very long time. I take medication and see a therapist, so I'm not here looking for advice. I just want to try and accept this, and maybe ask a few of the questions I have. I've lived with this for so long I've lost my way anywhere else...hence the choice of user name. I'm just starting to understand that others don't live like this. My whole world view is changing now. That's why I'm here: to try to re-learn what normal is.
About me...I'm a creative type. I sing. I cook. I make jewelry, right now I'm teaching myself to stitch bead work. I have tropical fish. I'm closer to thirty than to twenty. I'm statistically a genius. I'm sorry if that seems like bragging. I'm not proud of it. Actually, I say that as a disclaimer, because what it really means is that I'm freakish and strange. I don't believe it makes me any better than anyone else or anything. It's a pain.
I'm often available. I like to talk, if no one minds the odd unsolicited advice. I like to help. Please feel free to send me random messages, I'd like that. I'm friendly even when I don’t feel well.
Welcome to RYL! Please do not hesitate to contact me. xx
“Never lose faith in yourself,
and never lose hope;
remember, even when this world throws its worst and then turns its back,
there is still always hope.”
I liked your introduction, it's one I really relate to. I am also closer to thirty than twenty, don't give my name, and am trying to figure out the best way to accept this thing that is me. I have a higher than normal IQ, and it is a pain, I think it makes me even more aware of the damage I'm inflicting on myself sometimes.
If there's anything I can ever do to help don't hesitate to ask. I'm a bit strange, and even though I'm a complete trainwreck I've been told I can be helpful.
~ GirlofNight
"Life it seems to fade away, drifting farther everyday. Getting lost within myself. Nothing matters, no one else. Deathly lost, this can't be real. Cannot stand this hell I feel. Emptiness is filling me."
