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Needa stop going back.
I have this friend.. he was my bestfriend, until he told me he fell inlove with my friend tamara, right after she told him she loved me, then fell inlove with me. he tried to kill himself when i told him I didnt want to be with him. but he told me not to leave him, as I was going to do to stop hurting me. The he went through a month of being really cruel to me, but I stayed because he was my bestfriend, and I felt horrible, or Like i deserved it. He has kind of stopped that, but he has been going on all the time how depressed he is, and how he is stuggling because he is in pain all the time, he never wants to listen to what we have to say anymore and its always about him. Anyway, the other day I invited him to the anime convention me and my friends had been excited about for ages. I told him that that day was about me! and that i needed this one day where everything was happy, and where we had no problems. half way through the day he first tried tog et my girlfriend angry at me, then tried to make me worry about him by pretending to be in so much pain again.
I want to just forget about him, he hurts me all the time, and is hurting my girlfriend. I just.. Last time i tried he told me he was guna kill himself again, so I went back.. I want to leave, but some stupid part of me still loves him, he was my bestfriend, I have tried so hard ot make our friendship work again but he just thinks about himself. I love him and I dont want to leave but I think I need to, to survive this, I need to. I just.. I dont know what to do anymore.
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