need help now. cant stay safe

Cacoethes · 25-12-2010, 01:08 PM

im at home for christmas, and i really dont feel safe, i have access to strong medication and lots of it, i dont want to go back to hospital early, i will feel like i have failed, ive only got one day left. surely i can do it, cant i? i dont know, i really want to OD, but i dont want betray anyones trust but i want to OD and i dont think i can stop myself.
please help me

baggyjeans · 25-12-2010, 01:13 PM

You can do it! Stay strong! Just keep repeating to yourself, just one day, just one day...! xx

havealittlefaith · 25-12-2010, 01:23 PM

you can do it !!!! just stay strong hunni xx

Cacoethes · 25-12-2010, 02:45 PM

i just dont know if i can do it, the pills are in my room, mixed together i think i can do it :( WHY AM I SUCH A FAILURE

talaiporia · 25-12-2010, 03:34 PM

Please be careful. do you think you could ask someone like your parents to take them away or look after them for you?

Cacoethes · 25-12-2010, 04:27 PM

i dont want them to be disappointed in me, they think im doing so well to come home for christmas. everyone thinks im doing so well
BUT IM FUCKING NOT :'(

Pi.R^2 · 25-12-2010, 04:37 PM

Good luck! You have done well to be back for Christmas, and if it comes to it, giving the pills to your parents or something will only be a sign of how strong you are, because you want to fight this.
Keep fighting, you can do it :)

Mum24 · 25-12-2010, 05:53 PM

You are NOT a failure. I know how you feel wanting everyone to think you are well but if you aren't it's OK. Ask for help. You need it! And there's nothing wrong with that. I'm so sorry you are suffering do much on Christmas day.

There is no option luv, ask for help. You are not a failure. This is happening TO you not because of you. Hugs

Mum24 · 25-12-2010, 05:54 PM

P.s. Please don't take the OD.

Cacoethes · 25-12-2010, 06:10 PM

i feel ill :'(

Mum24 · 25-12-2010, 06:50 PM

Why? Did you take the meds????? Praying for you.

Cacoethes · 25-12-2010, 09:14 PM

yes. i failed

laughingdoll · 25-12-2010, 09:17 PM

Honey,
you need to go get medical help for the OD.
You didn't fail, I understand christmas is a difficult time for alot of people. xx

-Rainbow- · 25-12-2010, 09:52 PM

did you manage to get to A&E? you do need medical help. please keep us updated, i hope you are as ok as you can be lovely xx

Pi.R^2 · 25-12-2010, 10:18 PM

Hey Scarlett, let us know what's going on when you can.
Thinking about you :)

talaiporia · 25-12-2010, 10:24 PM

Becky, what's happening? Are you okay?
I think you should go to A&E.

Mum24 · 25-12-2010, 11:13 PM

Oh Sweetie hugsssssss. I hope you are safe. Please keep us updated! You did NOT fail. I've been there... there is no fault here. You are suffering.
Praying for you!!!

talaiporia · 26-12-2010, 01:01 AM

*bump*

Are you okay Becky? Did you got to the hospital?

talaiporia · 26-12-2010, 12:37 PM

*bump* Becky, did you get to hospital? Let us know what happened.

Cacoethes · 26-12-2010, 01:35 PM

i didnt go to hospital. but i phoned my ward and told them what i had done. they came to see me, brought more meds, told my mum to look after them, gave me an antidote then buggered off. Helpful.
Now im pissed off as well as suicidal