i just need to write it down n get it out my head a bit

[x.ILY.x]

iv not been on here for around a year and everythings been good until the last week and now im really struggling, iv just had a baby 6 months ago and i was so happy with my little family, i got a gorgous baby n a boyfriend that loves me so much, and iv stayed so strong for a year but now its crashing down, the docters think my boyfriends got cancer, everythings happening so fast hes got all these appointments and i carnt handle it all, i lost my grandad to the same thing in may and i litrally watched him die and i carnt handle all this again, i wana be strong for him cus hes so proud of how iv coped the last year n i dont wana dissapoint him, i carnt stop thinking about cutting myself, its driving me nuts, and i feel so selfish for thinkin about me, i carnt loose him he saved my life and i carnt do anything for him,

i just wanted to write this cus writing used to help me so much

[GoldDustReturnz]

Hey, love.

Im so sorry your having to deal with all this, I can totally understand why you've come back for some support.*big cuddles*

Maybe keep coming back & taling to us about it, just so you can vent it out for a little while, see if that helps, if you have any other professional help maybe you could use that service too, just to try and let out in words?

Please try your best not to hurt yourself though, lovely.
Is it really worth the hassel?
Your doing really well.
We're all here to support you.
Take care.
Ambs
xxx

[x.ILY.x]

for replying, im 2 scared to admit im strugglingto my docters, i dont want social services to think i carnt cope and take my baby away, im scared bout losing everything iv got, i was so happy :( i shudda known it wdnt last. im going to keep writing on here for a while.

so much for replying xx