Does anyone else get a twisting, squeezing, pulling pain in your chest? Not a phisical pain, not like somethings wrong medicaly. Its tied into emotional pain. Whenever I'm upset its there. Whenever I think about certain things it flairs to life. It started out as just a squeezing pain that got worse over time. But over time its got more and more intense, and more painful.
Its really unbearable now. The only thing that helps it when I cut.
Its like Ive got ropes around my heart that are squeezing it, and when I cut my flesh I cut the ropes. They come back eventualy. But yeah :/
Anyone else have this? Anyone else know how to get rid of it?
I sorta know what you mean yeah, kind of like the pain when you have a panic attack (if you've ever had one)? Not sure how to get rid of it though, sorry. x
maybe. kinda like being punched in the chest? had that lots when i was still hiding all my emotions, don't know what it's like for you...
counsellor suggested keeping a journal for a few months trying to put in words how i felt. but apparently most creative stuff like writing poetry and drawing or doodling is good.
hope this helps
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I do have panic attacks... but this is different.
Its really hard to describe it just right, but its really painful.
Ive tried everything to get rid of it. Including drawing, cause I like to draw. But it doesnt help.
Nothing helps, except cutting, like I've pointed out.
Sometimes it just makes me wish I could rip my heart out, because thats where the pain is.
I really cant take it :/
I think I know what you mean.
I usually get that pain during a panic attack or before it. But very often it comes when I am just a bit anxious or think about something that makes me feel really uneasy.
I still don't know how to get fully ruin of it.
I know cutting would help but I'm trying so hard not to do that. So I try to distract myself in other ways, listen to music, draw, write, read a book, watch TV, talk to someone... just do something pleasant that you can focuss on. I have tried to practise different sorts of relaxing techniques like breathing, stretching and stuff like that and sometimes those help along with good relaxing music and a cup of tea.
I know how awful that pain feels and I really hope you find a way to ease it and make it go away.
Is it that painful that you double-over,and does it kind of get worse if you breathe in. Because if it feels like that then yeah I get it too. I know this might seem like a silly thing but have you ever tried to sleep it off because that sometimes works for me. I'm afraid that's all I've got. Hope you find something that helps you. x
Yes, I understand what you mean. I think most people experience this, to some degree. It makes sense since body & mind are linked.
I also understand that nothing seems to make it stop except hurting yourself. I feel like such a hypocrite for saying this, but what if you don't feel like you 'have' to make it stop? What if you just accept that it's there, and it hurts, but no matter how unbearable it feels, you are stronger than you think. And if you just sit with it, you will find that you can cope and it will pass eventually.
That doesn't mean that you can't do things to ease it. Creative things like writing, drawing, journalling, are good. But rather than expecting them to have an immediate effect and giving up on them when they don't - realise that it will take time. Try to see it as more of a skill to be learnt than a quick fix. Keep trying and you may find that you learn to express yor feelings and contain them and it gets easier to bear and the 'ropes' get looser.
If you can work on the things that are causing the emotional pain and deal with them, find ways to make yourself feel better, it will get easier. Have you told yor psych about this?
Having said all that, if you have chest pain you should see your doctor just to be safe.
If you are having chest pain, I agree with those above me, you should see your doctor. Most likely they will start you out with an EKG just to make sure that everything is okay with your ticker before moving on to other possibilities. At least that's how it was for me.
I used to feel like that a lot, now it's not so bad but can get there quick should I have intense emotions about something. I was having panic attacks left and right. They got so bad that I felt like the air was being squeezed out of my lungs. My whole body would go numb and I could feel my hair moving. My chest was so tight that the air wouldn't come in and my body locked up. I could hear nothing but my heart beating and with every beat my vision would blur. Later I was diagnosed with severe anxiety disorder.
Anxiety disorders are similar to panic disorders but are much more intense. You say that you have had panic attacks, could it be that these attacks have developed into anxiety? I would suggest finding out more about anxiety and then discussing the possibility with your doctor.
I hope you feel better and find the cause of all the pain. Be strong hun. I know it may seem like cutting is the only option, but I believe that once you find out what is causing the pain you will be able to control it and not have to resort to cutting to ease it anymore. Feel better.
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And whom you love
And rid yourself of those who will only bring you down.
Thanks guys.
I dont want to tell my shrink cause I know what he's like and he wont do anything. It took me a while to tell him a lot of things, like about how i still have suicidal thoughts, how my self harm is just getting worse and worse, how I sorta hullusinate and hear things that arent there. He didnt do anything. Didnt even ask me anything about it. All he cares about is weather im in full time school. He thinks that if I'm in school everything else will just fall into place. Like hell. School makes the pain in my chest hit, and cause I'm at school i cant do anything about it. The pain makes me wanna cry out in pain, makes me wanna curl into a ball. I have done that before when it hit extremely suddenly, cause it took me by supprise that it came on so quick and so intence. Usualy it builds over time, so by the time it gets unbearable im expecting it. Doesnt make it any less painful, but when it takes me by supprise its like ive suddenly had my legs shoved from under me. When that happens inside of my i feel like im falling to peices. Cause I'll be shaking and crying, and i wont be able to move for a while. And when I do its only to harm myself to get it to go away.
I cant just accept that its there and put up with it. I've tried. But it gets so unbearable that I'd swap anything to get rid of it. Drawing and such doesnt help. Reading makes it a hell of a lot worse.
I do suffer from anxiety, but just social and seperation anxiety. Although I think i have it a lot worse than my shrink thinks. I get anxious and scared a lot of the time, especialy at night time. When im lying in bed on my own i honestly get really scared.
Sleeping does make it go away. But i have real difficulty sleeping. So if it hits during the day theres nothing I can do about it. Im not aloud to sleep during the day.
:/
Your shrink doesn't sound like he doing his job. It sounds more like he making excuses for you and not listening to you. It took me a long time to open up to the one I had, a year n a half to be exact, but mine actually listened and advised. Maybe you should consider switching, if at all possible.
You sound like you're under a lot of stress. If you are having trouble in school with the other students, that could be why your chest hurts there because you are stressed out over it all.
When you lay in your bed at night, when it is the worst, what are you thinking about? What is going through your mind the other times when you've been hit with this intense pain?
Embrace those who love you
And whom you love
And rid yourself of those who will only bring you down.
I know my shrink doesnt do his job.
But i think its just me.
I have 2 cousins who see him, fair enough they both see him for ADHD, but he helps them! There both on meds! And before anyone says it could be age Im older than the both of them! One of them is 6years old!
I just dont get it, yeah ADHD is different to what im like, but there not a danger to themself! as much as i hate to admit it I am! I dont think I can change who I see. I might be kicked out of school if I do.. its hard to explain but at my school you have to be sent there by a shrink to get there. Im scared that if I change who I see that they'll kick me out of school.
This pain in my chest wont go away! It didnt even go away after I slept! It came back! and i cant take it.
I dno what I think about to cause it, I know reading my books cause it.. but i cant stop reading books.. i just cant.
It's okay. -hugs- Calm down. Everything is going to be okay. Maybe then what you need is another alternative, someone else away from the situation to talk to about what's happening or what is not happening in your life.
I'm here for you if you'd like to talk to me about anything, we can talk about whatever you want. We can talk on this thread or you can PM me, or if you'd be more comfortable on IM we could do that too. I'm not a shrink and I'm probably about four thousand miles away, but I'll be here for you if that is what you want/need. I'm not just some random person, I've been where you are, maybe not exactly where you are, but I've been there. I can be here for you.
We can change the subject here if it is making the pain worse because I don't want you to feel worse, I want you to feel better. If you would like to continue with this subject, just let me know and we will.
Could you do me a favor though? Before you go to bed at night, I'd like for you to take a deep breathe, hold it, clear your mind and count to 10, let it out slowly, repeat this process 3 times, and as you close your eyes to sleep say to yourself that everything is going to be alright. Know that I'm here for you. It's completely optional and totally up to you, but I'd like for you to try it at least once.
I hope you sleep well tonight hun. I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers.
Embrace those who love you
And whom you love
And rid yourself of those who will only bring you down.
Hey, thanks for that offer I really arreciate it. I will PM you.
I would of replyed sooner but I have these periods where I cant talk to anyone much because i just cant put my thoughts into words.
And tbh talking about it doesnt make it worse. Night time is worse for more than one reason.. But im not going to say on here because it sounds very silly and very weird. Ive told people about it before, not many people, but the ones i have told didnt take it as seriosly as i feel they should. They made it out to be something simple when in my mind, its not simple at all.
Thanks, I'll try that before I go to bed, but I cant tell myself its going to be okay, because I know it wont. I can never have the life I want, so whats the point?
You're welcome! I have PMed you back. Things may be okay, I can understand you not wanting to tell yourself that because you believe that they won't, but no one really knows what the future holds and maybe it will surprise you and everything will be alright. Maybe. It may seem like you may never have the life you want right now, but it may all change. I'm glad that you are going to try the little breathing exercise before bed and in time I want you to have a little faith in yourself, when you're ready. Take care hun.
Embrace those who love you
And whom you love
And rid yourself of those who will only bring you down.
