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23-08-2014, 10:45 PM
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Join Date: Apr 2013
Location: UK
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Trigger Warning: Self-Harm (Suicide is mentioned once)
I was 387 days clean until Thursday when I SH. I thought maybe it was just a slip up but I've SH again tonight but worse then Thursdays but not as bad as I used to be. I don't really feel anything towards it. My feelings have been gone for a while so I don't really feel anything, I can feel the pain but no emotions. Yesterday was the only day in a while that I felt low but today I've gone back to feeling nothing. My mum and her partner say I've been pushing their limits this week but I don't feel like I've changed anything, maybe more irritable but then I get pissed off pretty easily anyways. I'm kinda worried that I'm going down hill again, I've been at the bottom where I wanted to kill myself and I just can't go back there. I'm thinking the stress of college has triggered something but I don't know.
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23-08-2014, 11:12 PM
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Chat Mod
Join Date: Aug 2009
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What do you think caused you to slip up?
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It doesn't matter where you come from; it matters where you go.
No-one gets remembered for the things they didn't do. We won't all be here this time next year,
so while you can take a picture of us. We're definitely going to hell,
but we'll have all the best stories to tell.
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23-08-2014, 11:22 PM
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Join Date: Apr 2013
Location: UK
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Tonight or Thursday? I think it was the stress of college coming up because they've changed the timetable adding extra hours and days on which is really freaking me out. I can't be sure but the day my college time table came through the post was the day I relapsed but today I relapsed again but idky. I didn't get anything out of it because I'm not feeling anything emotionally.
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25-08-2014, 01:52 AM
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Chat Mod
Join Date: Aug 2009
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Both.
That sounds stressful. Do you think you'll be able to cope with it, or do you think it might help to reduce your classload?
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It doesn't matter where you come from; it matters where you go.
No-one gets remembered for the things they didn't do. We won't all be here this time next year,
so while you can take a picture of us. We're definitely going to hell,
but we'll have all the best stories to tell.
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25-08-2014, 10:31 AM
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Join Date: Apr 2013
Location: UK
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I can't reduce my class load. I'm doing a level 3 childcare course but when I signed up they said it would be 2.5 days at college per week but they've changed it now to 5 days a week, all day. I feel cheated because I didn't sign up for that, they know I can't cope being in college 5 days a week. I've got a plan B which I'm looking into but I'm not telling anyone as I'm afraid it'll jinx it.
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25-08-2014, 06:33 PM
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Pathologically flamboyant
Join Date: Nov 2010
Location: Safety Cupboard
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Is there any kind of support services at college who you could talk to about this massively increased workload? Maybe they could help advocate for you to the course leaders to discuss ways to make things less stressful for you.
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No other sadness in the world would do
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28-08-2014, 10:35 PM
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Join Date: Apr 2013
Location: UK
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The lady who sorted something last year has left but I am hoping my other plan is going to work. If not I'm gonna have to try to stick with college.
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29-08-2014, 01:33 AM
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Chat Mod
Join Date: Aug 2009
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What's your other plan aside from college? I'm not sure I'm following.
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It doesn't matter where you come from; it matters where you go.
No-one gets remembered for the things they didn't do. We won't all be here this time next year,
so while you can take a picture of us. We're definitely going to hell,
but we'll have all the best stories to tell.
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29-08-2014, 04:09 PM
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Join Date: Apr 2013
Location: UK
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My other plan is something that'll make it so I'm at college (much) less but instead I'll be working more. Sorry it sounds confusing. They've also just added more time on the timetable at college. My other plan is on shaky grounds at the minute but I'm hoping it'll pull through.
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30-08-2014, 02:51 AM
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Chat Mod
Join Date: Aug 2009
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Ahh okay. Well, I hope it works out for you. :)
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It doesn't matter where you come from; it matters where you go.
No-one gets remembered for the things they didn't do. We won't all be here this time next year,
so while you can take a picture of us. We're definitely going to hell,
but we'll have all the best stories to tell.
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