The background you need is that I was raped ten years ago and hadn't been with anyone until a few months ago. It's something I never ever thought I would be ready for but with fairly intensive counselling, I got together with a friend.
We have known each other maybe 4 years although don't see each other that regularly. He always indicated that he liked me. After feeling a bit more ready for something, we went on a date. We didn't have sex on the first night
We don't live near each other so we were planning a second date and ended up deciding to go on holiday instead. We flew to another country and spent a week at the beach in the sun. It was perfect, completely romantic and sex wise everything went to plan. I had a freak out before we went and said i didnt want to go. He knows nothing about what happened to me so doesn't really know where that came from. I said it was health related and he went really weird on me and ignored me for a couple of weeks and said he couldn't handle that.
He wanted us to keep seeing each other once we got back and I agreed but then he stopped replying to texts. I was asking about seeing each other again and tonight he sent me a message saying he's really busy and he's started seeing someone. He said she has some health problems so he's really focussed on being there for her and can't really speak to me just now.
I said its funny because he was so rubbish with me when I wasn't well (which ok, i wasnt physically unwell but easier than explaining what had happened to me) and he sent back "goodbye". He's blocked me from all forms of social media which REALLY hurts. I apologised and he told me I am poison and he doesn't want me in his life.
I appreciate that this doesn't make him a fantastic person but it hurts SO badly. He's the only person I've ever been able to be physically intimate with and now he hates me.