quitting therapy.
Therapy has never ever wroked for me in the past, ususally because of the therapists, and the approach. its essentially that I have no problem figuring out what is going on for me, and going to therapy for me was just rehashing it out again for me. But last summer I went to go see this psychiatrist guy at our local hospital on the referral of my moms psychiatrist, and it was really good. he was very straight forward. but he was just there to 'diagnose' and asess me, because he didn't have any availabilities for patients. so i got shipped over to this other guy, who was a resident therapist there, and I worked with him for 6 weeks of the 12 week program (this was last week) and then quit. i didn't want to just give up on therapy like i had in the past, but it just was not working, doing anything other than making me think about it more, and it wasn't doing me any good,and i got the very strong feeling that it wasn't going to do me any good, either. one thing about me is that above all else, I know myself.
I've been doing just fine without it, aside from a little episode on wednesday, but next week i have to go talk to the psychiatrist guy again for him to reasess. and i dont really know what to say to him, cause I know he's going to be dissapointed. another thing is that he put me on an antidepressant last summer, which was supposed to be used in combination with the comittment to therapy, and the medication has really done wonders for me. And now im really quite worried he's gonna take me off it.
I'm just kinda freaking out and wondering if anyone has been in a similar situation. thoughts?
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