Me and my friends
We don't encourage discipline
Or really much of anything We do our drugs 'til we're lit up
Tell ourselves that this is love
But it's never added up
And it will never be enough
It's the same corner booth
The same Smith street bar
The same sour mouths
And the same empty arms
Forever and ever our lives
On a loop
It's the same dollar draft
The same whiskey words
The same hanging heart
And the same old scorched earth
We're further and further
Away from the truth
I wanna stop it
I wanna stop it
I wanna stop it
But it's the only life I know how to live
We make a mess of what matters
Give our good grace away
We try to drink the clock backwards
And pretend like nothing's changed
But you think I'm a liar, and you think I'm a fake
And I think you're a coward, but it's not what I say
I call you my brother, and you call me the same
I wanna stop it
I wanna stop it
I wanna stop it
But it's the only life I know how to live
I wanna stop it
I wanna stop it
I wanna stop it...
Let the smear words spill out of the sides of our mouth;
Go be my ghost and I'll go be yours
But tonight brother, pour me one more
Oh tonight brother pour me one more
Yeah tonight I'll just cut you one more
Yeah tonight I'll just cut you one more
One more...
When I'm gone, are you gonna miss me? Are you even listening? Do you even care about anything at all?
Why the **** do I keep feeling like I lost my ****?
It's like I should just give up because I'm not legit
It's like I got a chain wallet and some frosted tips
Sometimes I wanna grab a ****ing gun and swallow it
It's like pulling teeth for me to give a compliment
That's why I walk into your circle and I talk some ****
I'm sure you tell all of your friends that I'm a monster prick
Man, I wish that guy would take a hike and chomp a dick
And I can't stop any of these evil thoughts
And I never thought I would ever be so lost
Make these bad thoughts go away, they need to stop
And if I keep sobbing like a bitch, I'll need a mop
It's like my mind's a broken record, make it go away
And I keep telling myself that I'll be okay
But something negative is all I ever seem to think
So I guess I'll just get down on my knees and pray
Well, I know I should be moving on
But I feel like I'm already gone
Now if somebody'd only save me from
This broken record that's playing in my heart
Thought I'd be happy, it feels like I'm cursed
It's hard to be clean when you play in the dirt
You gave me this place to go when I'm hurtin'
I thought it'd get better, but it's getting worse
And I got nobody to blame when I work
Like 24/7, I ain't been to church
And Satan keep callin' me, he tryna flirt
I hang up the phone, these are more than just words
I drive on that highway and listen to Mansion
I look up to God like, "When did this happen?"
Yellin' with all of my fans to wake up
But feel like I haven't
I get emotional, I didn't plan this
I'm doing things I never imagined
I'm sorry, but I gotta leave
I don't wanna be late for my therapy session
When I'm gone, are you gonna miss me? Are you even listening? Do you even care about anything at all?
If I'm on my knees
I'm begging now
If I'm on my knees
Groping in the dark
I'd be praying for deliverance
From the night into the day
But it's all gray here
It's all gray to me
The deck is stacked against you
Life's a losing hand
Even when you think you're up
You're right back down again
Either way you play it
The house is gonna win It's hard being little
It's hard being small
Make it up that mountain
You're gonna stand up big and tall
Well the trouble with the mountain
There's a million ways to fall
Oh, my eyes are seein’ red
Double vision from the blood we’ve shed
The only way I’m leavin’ is dead
That’s the state of my, state of my, state of my head
How I died by the living man?
Time passed and so did I
A frog in the throat
The feelings of the sleeves in an ill-fitting coat:
I am nothing of note
I’m just fine
Most the time
I’ll get by
Thoughts never teethed
By the unconceived
How bleak
Sleep so unsound in this self-imposed cell
Oh well
Decorate floors with fabric
Dug too deep to break a habit
Buried in a burrow on borrowed time
This hole on the whole is mine
I’m just fine
Most the time
I’ll get by
I’ll survive
I’ve been losing the taste for living
Biting my tongue
Now it’s bleeding
Biding my time
Just to give in
Laying awake for days
Changing the sheets on my grave
Re-pointing the paths I’ve paved
Re-living mistakes I've made
When I'm gone, are you gonna miss me? Are you even listening? Do you even care about anything at all?
Fourteen, cleaning crimson from carpets of cream
Before that it’s seen
School tie tied too tight
I’m afraid it’s frayed and has dropped my weight
Cough, choke, press your hands on your throat
You broke your nose when your noose broke loose
How quickly caught that I have been
Within the life I’ve failed to leave
Tragic how common this want to rot
Could it be symptomatic of an ancient mechanic?
People evolved for a vastly different time
Before we tamed our thoughts with an inquisitive mind
Move on I’m no good
What do I contribute
Cut the fat from your backs
Where do I exactly fit?
Does the group benefit if I quit
And cease to exist?
Solicit illness from excess
Mental wellness and health
The antithesis of success
In praise of idleness
The true altruists gift
To split the wrist
Self sacrifice
A common drive, it is rife
With science, sustenance is sustained in abundance
How do I feel a pride? I’m still alive
When I'm gone, are you gonna miss me? Are you even listening? Do you even care about anything at all?
I want it all
I'll watch the bridges all burn
And I'll be your dog
I'd be a darling for you
Or anyone who wants me at all
Does anybody want me at all?
'Cause I'd sell my soul
To be America's pool boy
The crown centerfold
My few good years left, a tribute
To anyone who wants me at all
Does anybody want me at all?
Oh, do you want me at all?
Do you want me at all?
Do you want me at all?
Aw, do you want me at all?
I've got it all
I feel the love in suspension
And nearer my god
At hallowed ground, holding hands
Ashing cigarettes on gravestones
Pin photographs on cork boards
Unfollowing my dead friends
Someone's gonna love me
Oh, do you want me?
Do you want me at all?
Do you want me at all?
When I'm gone, are you gonna miss me? Are you even listening? Do you even care about anything at all?
i heard this song on the radio and its been stuck in my head
Every time that you get undressed
I hear symphonies in my head
I wrote this song just looking at you oh, oh
Yet the drums they swing low
And the trumpets they go
And the trumpets they go
Yeah the trumpets they go
Da da, da ra ra da, da, da
Da, ra, ra, ra, da, da
Da da, da ra ra da, da, da
Da, ra, ra, ra, da, da
They go
Is it weird that I hear
Violins whenever you’re gone
Whenever you’re gone
Is it weird that your ass
Remind me of a Kanye West song?
Kanye West song
Is it weird that I hear
Trumpets when you’re turning me on?
Turning me on
Is it weird that your bra
Remind me of a Katy Perry song?
Every time that you get undressed
I hear symphonies in my head
I wrote this song just looking at you ooh, oh
Yeah the drums they swing low
And the trumpets they go (and they playing for you girl)
And the trumpets they go (ha, yeah)
Yeah the trumpets they go
Yeah the trumpets they go (go, go go, go go, go, go go)
And they go
Is it weird that I hear
Angels every time that you moan?
Time that you moan
Is it weird that your eyes
Remind me of a Coldplay song?
Coldplay song
Is it weird that I hear
Trumpets when you’re turning me on?
Turning me on
Is it weird that your bra
Remind me of a Katy Perry song?
Every time that you get undressed
I hear symphonies in my head
I wrote this song just looking at you oh
Oh yeah
Every time (every time) that you get undressed (every time that you get undressed)
I hear symphonies in my head (I hear symphonies in my head)
I wrote this song (I wrote this song) just looking at you oh, oh (just looking at you girl)
Yeah the drums they swing low
And the trumpets they go (ha, acapella on them)
They go (ha, yeah)
Come on, come on, come on, they go
You have to feel pain to know happiness.
You have to fall to get up.
You have to Hope so you can dream!
You have to look at the rough times and see how far you have come!
My brother's blood boils in my arms
It balls my fingers into fists
It bubbles, blisters, burns my palms
It floods with fury, fights and fits
It's got the good guy in me hiding
It kicks my humble heart around
It's got me fiending for the fire
That could finish off this town
It's got me good
My brother's blood on a cherry tree
It stains the bark from branch to root
It puddles thick with pits and leaves
It strains the sweetness from the fruit
It's got me looking for communion
A hiding spot off underground
An open plot I could climb into
A lightning promise in my mouth
A blackout oath I swore and meant
But couldn't conjure up again
I don't know one thing about my brother's blood
My brother's blood
In my dirty lungs
In my crooked mouth
On my swollen tongue
On my father's gun
On each stranger's face
Across the bluebird sky
On every hand I shake
Night after night
With each chuckled prayer
Such sweet relief
Fists full of hair
And each desperate drive
For elusive peace
with every endless night
And each wasted week
All that dialogue
Doubling back at me
All that tangled talk
All that growling need
My brother's back
My father's arms
Every twisted fact
In my sorry heart
My sorry heart
My sorry heart
I spit and scream "what's done is done
Go make your peace with everyone"
They don't need to know about my brother's blood
No, they don't need to know about my brother's blood.
When I'm gone, are you gonna miss me? Are you even listening? Do you even care about anything at all?
No one will tell you about the limit,
They put on how long you can grieve.
No one will warn you when you're winning,
How heavy a loss, love can be.
They do not tell you about the friendships,
You'll lose once the lights are dimmed down.
How humble you'll feel about your past bliss,
Once the tables have turned 'round.
Nothing can shield you from the silence,
Nights spent on his side of the bed.
Praying for help to please stop crying.
My life just got turned on its head.
They fail to explain how complex love is.
Like why I mostly miss him as a friend.
Or how big of a blow it was for my ego,
That she might be better for him.
But I wanna tell you I got through,
The hardest of times on my own.
I made some mistakes,
I made a few,
But I learned that I am strong.
And just because it hurts,
Doesn't mean it isn't worth it.
And even if it stings,
It's just a temporary thing.
And no one said that changing,
Won't cost you love,
Won't make you cry.
But it will all make sense.
When the growing pains subside.
Giving up doesn't always mean you're weak.
Sometimes it just means you're strong enough to let go.
Can anybody hear me?
Or am I talking to myself?
My mind is running empty
In this search for someone else
Who doesn't look right through me
It's all just static in my head
Can anybody tell me why I'm lonely like a satellite?
'Cause tonight I'm feeling like an astronaut
Sending SOS from this tiny box
And I lost all signal when I lifted up
Now I'm stuck out here and the world forgot
Can I please come down (come down)?
'Cause I'm tired of drifting round and round (and round)
Can I please come down?
I'm deafened by the silence
Is it something that I've done?
I know that there are millions
I can't be the only one
Who's so disconnected
It's so different in my head
Can anybody tell me why
I'm lonely like a satellite?
'Cause tonight I'm feeling like an astronaut
Sending SOS from this tiny box
And I lost all signal when I lifted up
Now I'm stuck out here and the world forgot
Can I please come down (come down)?
'Cause I'm tired of drifting round and round (and round)
Can I please come down?
Now I lie awake and scream
In a zero gravity
And it's starting to weigh down on me
Let's abort this mission now
Can I please come down?
So tonight I'm calling all astronauts
All the lonely people that the world forgot
If you hear my voice come pick me up
Are you out there?
'Cause you're all I've got!
And tonight I'm feeling like an astronaut
Sending SOS from this tiny box
And I lost all signal when I lifted up
Now I'm stuck out here and the world forgot
'Cause tonight I'm feeling like an astronaut
Sending SOS from this tiny box
To the lonely people that the world forgot
Are you out there?
'Cause you're all I've got!
Can I please come down?
(please, please, please)
'Cause I'm tired of drifting round and round
(I'm tired of drifting round)
Can I please come down?
(please, please, please)
Can I please come down?
Can I please come down?
♪"'Cause I'm about to break down,
I'm searchin' for a way out,
I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer
I'm a popular, popular monster"♪
So tonight I'm calling all astronauts
All the lonely people that the world forgot
If you hear my voice come pick me up
Are you out there?
'Cause you're all I've got!
I thought I was meant for something more than where I reside
In the space between the cracks along the floor
And I couldn’t know what i’d become buried deep inside
In a place that I’ve never been before
I’m losing whatever made me breathe
Whatever made me feel alive
And I’m losing whatever made me dream
Of anything but fear in my heart
And I’m losing me
In a hole far too deep to let go
I am growing my last hope
Down so low, you can’t know what it’s like
To not know what you want anymore
I’ve found a home in rain and loam
An escape from the flowers we’ve grown on
And I’ll explode far before we could know
What it’s like to not want anymore
I’m losing whatever made me breathe
Whatever made me feel alive
And I’m losing whatever made me dream
Of anything but fear in my heart
And I’m losing whatever I believed
Would carry me along in the dark
And I’m losing me
Down this low you can’t know what it’s like
To not know what you want anymore
When I'm gone, are you gonna miss me? Are you even listening? Do you even care about anything at all?
I sit back and think about the life I've had
So much to change, but I can't go back
What happened to that kid who used to play in the street?
I think about that kid, he looked just like me
Had a smile, had a home, never grew old
When we grow up, do we have to grow cold?
Spent his whole life looking for salvation
Never realized nobody could save him
So all these words, for what they're worth
I know it's hard, I know it hurts
And we laugh at the past 'cause that's how we learn
Welcome to the world, now let's watch it burn
♪"'Cause I'm about to break down,
I'm searchin' for a way out,
I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer
I'm a popular, popular monster"♪
The sun is going down now
And it's been okay You tell me all these things you did
While I was away
And this worries me somewhat...
But you say you're fine...
