So i know I text these lyrics to you all the time... but the song is great so here we go again:
where are you now?
As im swimmin through the stereo
I'm writing you a synphony of sound
where are you now?
as I rearrange the songs again
this mix could burn a hole through anyone
but it was you I was thinking of.
dad- Im sorry i can't be what you want and that who i am is not enough for you. I try so hard to make you proud but I guess I will never be good enough. Its a good thing I have a younger sister and she is all you wanted in a daughter and Im sorry im not like her, but i don't want to be like her.
You probably don't understand, most people don't. You will never understand how much anger, how much self-hatred someone must have to take a razor to themselves and cut into their own skin.
Why haven't you rang me back? I left messages with 6 of you and none of you bothered to ring me back or even text me. Your supposed to be my family. It hurts
"Recovery is something that you have to work
on every single day and it's
something that doesn't
get a day off."
Stad, na dean sin, get away, I don't want you, I don't want any of this. Either leave it at that and go or tear me apart completely. Ta me ar strae and I'm tired of it.
Eckhart saw Hell too. He said: The only thing that burns in Hell is the part of you that won't let go of life, your memories, your attachments. They burn them all away. But they're not punishing you, he said. They're freeing your soul. So, if you're frightened of dying and... and you're holding on, you'll see devils tearing your life away. But if you've made your peace, then the devils are really angels, freeing you from the earth.
I feel like I'm being used. You don't wanna see me but you say you do, but you never make any effort....I miss you and how it used to be. I can't do this for much longer. please just decide and tell me. I can't go on hanging around like this. It's not fair. :'(
i just want to be perfect for you.
I ask if you're ok to make sure there is no problem. I'll stop asking because it might annoy you.
I kiss you because I love to kiss you. But I'll calm down incase I seem pushy.
Maybe there are no problems. Maybe I am just being paranoid. But I cant bare to lose you. The hurt would be too much.
I love you.
Thought I oughta bare my naked feelings
Thought I oughta tear the curtain down
I held the blade in trembling hands
Prepared to make it but just then the phone rang
I never had the nerve to make the final cut
Stad, na dean sin, get away, I don't want you, I don't want any of this. Either leave it at that and go or tear me apart completely. Ta me ar strae and I'm tired of it.
i had to look up what you wrote, hah. hope all is well, kid.
There are 2 sides to me and they are getting mixed up.
I can't deal with pretending to be ok.
I'm not ok.
I hate you all for destroying my life.
I forgive you all for ruining my life.
I hate me for letting you all do this.
I'm losing control of my life.
I can't deal with this life.
I can't hurt you all.
I can't hurt me.
I'm sorry I'm a failure.
I'm a hypocrit.
I want death.
I want life.
I want revenge.
I want a new start.
I don't know who I am.
I don't care anymore.
I am so tired of all this.
I just want to sleep and not think.
I want to be who I was two months ago, i was happy.
My life is f**ked up.
I want everyone to understand.
