going IP - need some support please (update on post 52) - Page 3

rach3121 · 01-05-2012, 10:08 AM

Thinking of you hun xo

lozza · 01-05-2012, 11:07 AM

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Originally Posted by crazykat

What would you have liked him to say? What kind of support from him are you looking for? Hopefully your own pdoc can get across what they feel is best for you. Also hopefully the new meds work.

to at least acknowledge that I wasnt feeling great. that I was in a bad place but that doesnt mean I will stay there. just really needed to hear he was listening and getting how serious ella is right now you know?

my own private pdoc cant do anything whilst I'm IP which kinda sucks as she knows me well.

and yeh fingers crossed the meds help!

crazykat · 01-05-2012, 01:47 PM

Yeah I understand, it's hard when we don't have that acknowledgement. Take care of yourself lovely

lozza · 02-05-2012, 03:15 AM

thanks kat. trying to

crazykat · 02-05-2012, 03:26 AM

Glad your trying hun, keep at it. Thinking of you

lozza · 03-05-2012, 01:02 AM

from my journal this morning:

my mind is so messed up and conflicted right now. and with each day i am isolating more and struggling to speak the truth.

i emailed T last night (key worker at home).
i want to talk and be honest but I also need to get out of here to kill myself.
her response was that I'd make the right decision in the end.

The following content has been hidden - Reason : *sui trig*

I dont know what I am doing anymore. I dont even think I care.

I had to really force myself to go for a walk yesterday - it was tough, really hard... but i had to whilst it wasnt raining so i could post mjs bday pressie. the walk didnt help my mood like i would have hoped either

today I rate my mood as 1, yesterday and the day before it was a 2 (on the scale 10 being the very best..)
I cant even go to group. and yes I know it's important I go but I really cant be around people right now. hiding is easier and so much safer. if I'm alone, no one can hurt me you see...

lozza · 04-05-2012, 09:48 AM

discharge date thurs 10th may :s

Snow White. · 04-05-2012, 01:22 PM

How are you feeling about it Lozza, can you talk a bit more about it and why they've picked that day?

Have they arranged some post-discharge support?

Hope you're okay x

dontwantyoutoknow · 04-05-2012, 02:22 PM

Hey Lozza honey, I've only just seen this thread.
You really didn't have to worry about my birthday hon, honestly. But thank you very much though I'm sorry the walk didn't help you.
Try to think of the benefits - you're going home on Thursday - that means seeing your piggies again! So you have to keep going for your piggies, right? Love you lots. xxx

lozza · 05-05-2012, 12:52 AM

thanks guys

and originally pdoc wanted me gone tues/wed but i said no... on thurs norma is working and i feel comfortable around her so thurs is the day

think new med has kicked in too... now to just get off the rest of the seroquel:s

and no prob at all mj, of course I was gona send you something.... I hope you like it :)

lozza · 05-05-2012, 12:58 AM

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Originally Posted by dontwantyoutoknow

Hey Lozza honey, I've only just seen this thread.
You really didn't have to worry about my birthday hon, honestly. But thank you very much though I'm sorry the walk didn't help you.
Try to think of the benefits - you're going home on Thursday - that means seeing your piggies again! So you have to keep going for your piggies, right? Love you lots. xxx

http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum...31#post3214131

so you can meet them before your bday.... my baby pigs I mean

lozza · 08-05-2012, 01:45 AM

crap

lost my wallet this morning:(

dontwantyoutoknow · 08-05-2012, 02:38 PM

*cuddles* Got my parcel today! Thank you! Not opening it until my birthday though. xxxx

lozza · 09-05-2012, 04:10 AM

mj thats a LOOOOONG wait!!!! but I sent u a letter yesterday so u should get it end of week early next week...

crazykat · 09-05-2012, 10:16 AM

How are you doing hun? Thinking of you

lozza · 09-05-2012, 10:24 AM

hey kat

I dont know to be honest... I'm 'fine'?

crazykat · 09-05-2012, 12:25 PM

I don't believe that. It's okay to be not fine. Here if you need to talk *cuddles*

dontwantyoutoknow · 10-05-2012, 03:45 PM

How did the discharge go hon? You ok?

It's not that long. Three weeks today.

Your guineas are gorgeous! Munchkin is my favourite! x

lozza · 11-05-2012, 02:24 AM

yeh going ok so far xx

dontwantyoutoknow · 11-05-2012, 02:08 PM

Um, reading your r/v - no it isn't going fine!!!!! *cuddles*
I love you and I don't want to lose you.
Got your letter today, thank you.
xxxxxxxx