*hugs* I'll be praying :) I hope this year isn't so bad for you
"God take me, because I hate me" -Underoath
We are male and female. We are artists, athletes, and students. We have depression, PTSD, eating disorders, bipolar disorder, or maybe no diagnosis at all. Some of us were abused, some not. We come from all walks of life and can be any age. We are every race or religion that you can think of. Our common link is this: We are in pain. We self-injure. And we are not freaks.
East to West by Casting Crowns is another good one. There's a song called You are more thats been all over the two local Christian radio stations...a little too much, lol. It's really good.
It's basically just like a massive event where loads of churches (over 15000 people last year) all come together and it's mainly about the worship, but there are also like shops and bouncy castles and activities and stuff. But it's mainly awesome christian concerts and music, this year on the main stage there is Matt Redman, TobyMac, David Crowder Band, Israel Houghton, Chris Tomlin and others. Dunno if you guys know who they are, but they're awesome :P I can't wait!
These are a few of my photos from last year...
:) it's brilliant. Quite a bit like the worship at Soul Survivor or Newday, if you've ever been to those. Anyway, I'll shut up now coz I've totally photo-spammed this thread! Sorry! x
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Heading up to four years free. I NEVER thought I'd be in this position - recovery IS possible and it is even better than you can imagine :)
In my anguish I cried to the Lord, and he answered by setting me free. Psalm 118:5
Yeah, I've heard of all of them. All but Matt are from the US, and Matt is in the US now. I saw Israel once, at a huge conference. Sounds amazing. We've got stuff like that here, but of course since the US is so much bigger than the UK, I'm sure it has a different feel to it. People from all over go to those things, but its still only a tiny portion of the population. Ah don't worry about spamming it.
On that note- I know this is in the SI forum but its the only Christian thread around. I mean, I post elsewhere too, but this thread is different- its consistent. I'm 4 months free of SI as of yesterday (though only a few weeks free of coming very, very close). But lately I've been dealing a lot with some abuse that happened to me a long time ago. I thought I had dealt with it but God showed me I really hadn't...I'd forgiven the person, but never really worked through it. I'm still very ashamed. And now that I've realized that all the hurt is coming in...I never really let myself go through the emotions. I really just wanted to curl up and hide in my bed today. I need to talk to someone. But I don't know who and it's kinda nerve wracking.
Every day the world is made a chance to change but i feel the same.
And I wonder why would i wait till i die to come alive?"
All alone the way she feels
Left alone to deal with all the pain-drenched sorrow relief
misconception - that's near where i live. i migth think about going...
teardownoldwalls - i'm sorry you suffered like that and that you feel ashamed of what happened to you. the abuse was in no way your fault, though i'm sure it's going to take a while and some work for you to feel the truth of that. is there anyone who's in your life already who you think you might like to tell? or do you need someone new?
at mass today we had the reading from Jonah where he goes to Ninevah and they repent. in the sermon the priest said how God always gives us second chances, and i had a think and thought about whether this was true and decided it ought to be a million chances in my case. i still don't know what God wants me to do but i pray he keeps giving me more chances to get it right. i pray that all of us who feel like we can't get it right will see that it doesn't matter because God is so good.
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It is partly my fault. I didn't iniate it, want it, or in any way suggest anything along those lines; but I could have resisted from the start. Yeah, I'm still mulling over who to talk to. I think it needs to be someone I know, I've got trust issues. At the moment, I think I'm being ridiculous and just need to not let it affect me; after all, others have gone through far worse. But as I was typing that I realized I've gone through the same yo-yo thinking before and always end up facing the problem. Eventually. And I really ought not to use that rationalization, because what about the people I'm gonna help someday? I'm not going to deny their pain is trivial.
Praise God, He gives us loads of chances- look in Kings, lol. But in reading the OT it is clear that at some point if a person never truly repents, they've had their last chance. Pharoah in Exodus for example.
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Every day the world is made a chance to change but i feel the same.
And I wonder why would i wait till i die to come alive?"
All alone the way she feels
Left alone to deal with all the pain-drenched sorrow relief
Tam is right! Listen to Tam for she is wise! Seriously sweetheart, none of it was your fault! You have to let go of the guilt n stop punishing yourself! You've suffered enough!
At the moment, I think I'm being ridiculous and just need to not let it affect me; after all, others have gone through far worse. But as I was typing that I realized I've gone through the same yo-yo thinking before and always end up facing the problem. Eventually. And I really ought not to use that rationalization, because what about the people I'm gonna help someday? I'm not going to deny their pain is trivial.
