*Possible Trigger*
I’ve been trying so hard not to relapse, but I’ve never felt I needed it so much as I now. It’s been a few months now and I had got rid of anything I could use but this morning I had this urge to find something to keep close to me, I don’t know it kind of makes me feel safe, it helps just having it there but at the same time it’s all I can think about. I want to get rid of it like the others but there’s something stopping me this time. My boyfriend gets really angry when we talk about self harm, I don’t want to bring it up to him or how I’m feeling but I also don’t have anyone else to turn to. This is why I’ve come to here, knowing people in the same situation or similar. I’ve spent the last 15 hours contemplating what to do, sitting here trying everything to make the thoughts go away but nothings working. I’ve never desired it more then i have now. But I don’t want to relapse but at the same time I don’t know if I’m strong enough to fight this
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