First off, my name is Sarah and I am bulimic. And thats the first time I've had the strength to admit that to myself.
On the outside I look normal but behind closed doors I go though cycles of binging and then fasting to make up for what I eat in the binge cycle. Since I was 13 (now almost 21) I've been living in this and until now I've never had the strength to break it.
I'm finally ready to stop letting this thing control my life, my social interactions and how I feel about myself. My doctor suggested that as I can't have in house treatment, finding a forum might help as well as writing down what I felt about what I eat and what I do in a journal. I'm being thrown in the deep end until there is space for me in a treatment program or my doctor can get me an appointment with someone more used to dealing with this but I do know I want to get better.
I guess that part of this is a vent, part of this is total confusion on what to do now. Where do I go from here? How do I change my eating habits and thoughts? I've been like this for so long, can I change?