Omg, I'm really struggling to cope just now and my team knows this, I have to see them every week but somehow they say I'm engaging but not complying with the doctor,
They never listen to what I say to them so I decided not to take my med and tgey say im unstable and did a risk assessament on me last week
Dawn, I'm sorry to hear about your brother, I hope things can be sorted for him soon. It's so awful to know there are so many people needing treatment who can't access it :(
Mark, I hope you're not too hungover today. Were you okay last night?
Sasha, how are you feeling today? Are things any better?
Darlkill (sorry, do you have something you prefer to be called? I don't remember, my brain is mush today!), can you ask your team if they could provide more information on what they feel is going on? Perhaps if you opened up the way for some dialogue they could be more helpful for you.
Lucy, how are things?
I have to go back to work next week. If I don't, my pay will be stopped. So I have to go back. I don't want to go. That job makes my mental health so much worse. It scares me how ill I have become again since starting there. But what can I do, I need to get paid, so there isn't really a choice there. I'm tempted to overdose so I don't have to go back, but that wouldn't fix the pay issue. I don't know what to do. At least, not what to do for the best. I know what I HAVE to do. But that isn't what I want, or what I feel I can handle. Sigh.
Sorry for moaning. Sending kind thoughts to you all x
Sorry to hear things are difficult for you. Could you maybe start looking for a new job while you go back to work at this one? If you can find something that will still pay you, but won't affect your MH as much, it would be one less thing to stress and worry about.
Hope you're all ok. *hugs all*
"I need you to know, I'm not through the night. Some days I'm still fighting to walk towards the light."
"I don't belong here, I gotta move on, dear. Escape from this afterlife"
"Don't let them in, don't let them see. Be the good girl you always had to be. Conceal, don't feel, don't let them know."
I most certainly do, Mark. I woke up today at 5am, and it took me until 6:15am to move. I actually woke up to a text from my boss asking me to be at work at 6:15am instead of 7am, but just was so... bleh, that I was like "I can't be there early, sorry". lol :/
*hugs*
"I need you to know, I'm not through the night. Some days I'm still fighting to walk towards the light."
"I don't belong here, I gotta move on, dear. Escape from this afterlife"
"Don't let them in, don't let them see. Be the good girl you always had to be. Conceal, don't feel, don't let them know."
Sasha and Suzie, Thanks. I don't know how true it is that everyone is denied initially. I was approved my first time applying. And granted my physical health was really not good at all for my age, it was my mental probs I was applying for. His health...is well, f*cking crumbling to bits... It makes me so worried, he's the only good family member I really have. Once we can get him on the state disability, and application for social security is in, we'll see about doing the lawyer route. If I need to ask any questions from another one who has some perspective, I'll know who to contact, thanks Sasha.
Suzie, sorry you are feeling so apprehensive about work. Is it really stressful, or what else is so difficult about your job? Can I ask what you do? I also like Sasha's suggestion. Can you look for another job? Do you have any mental health people to talk to about your concerns? Can you talk to your fiancé about this?
So your scars fade away/You soaked up the pain/A better person 'cause you lived through those days/And now you know what it's like to prove/You can overcome anything that gets to you/Well it's alright/We're sayin' our goodbyes/To the past and everything that ain't right/We won't waste another day/With all these silly things in our way-Crossfade
Light a candle for the sinners...Set the world on fire...
Mark and Sasha, hope you both are feeling better. *hugs*
I'm just so worn out from this damn cold. I hope everyone has an ok day at least.
So your scars fade away/You soaked up the pain/A better person 'cause you lived through those days/And now you know what it's like to prove/You can overcome anything that gets to you/Well it's alright/We're sayin' our goodbyes/To the past and everything that ain't right/We won't waste another day/With all these silly things in our way-Crossfade
Light a candle for the sinners...Set the world on fire...
thank you Mark. -10 F without even factoring in the wind chill... UGH that's way too cold for me. I'm too old for temps like that!
How are you?
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So your scars fade away/You soaked up the pain/A better person 'cause you lived through those days/And now you know what it's like to prove/You can overcome anything that gets to you/Well it's alright/We're sayin' our goodbyes/To the past and everything that ain't right/We won't waste another day/With all these silly things in our way-Crossfade
Light a candle for the sinners...Set the world on fire...
