Will you please leave me alone, and stop telling me how to sort my own head out?
No, stop telling me to be so flipping positive all the time.
I really hate you.
Have you noticed the constant glances whenever you're in the room? I barely see you now, and when I do, I have to stay far away. How could you do that? I used to think we were close, we shared a connection that nobody could break, or tear, or hurt. And then you decide you don't want to have anything to do with me? how could you do that? When I cry myself to sleep at night, or wake up from a dream where you still cared, I have to go through the hell of remember you don't.
Because you won't even hear me anymore.
I love you.
But you're not worth it.
There are days when just getting out of bed is an act of bravery. Those are the days you are my hero.
I just don't get it, i can't understand, how ever hard i try.
You say you care, then why the hell did you do it?
fair enough a kiss, i could possible be able to understand how you could kiss someone but the fact you did more, the fact you nearly had sex, i can't. Why didn't you stop? why carry on and do other stuff?
if you cared at all you would have wouldn't you?
I am so ****ing jealous - I'm not afraid to admit that. I wish I was going. I asked and they wouldn't let me. Why do they let you? I wanted to go - I would have been better at it, and I would have been safer there. **** you
I love you so much, what hurts is that if you loved me anywhere near as much as I love you, you would have taken the risk by now.
I am not that much of a risk to take.
H: It was my fault, I let it go too far. I shouldn't have had more than a "Happy Birthday" sip for you. I shouldn't have let you sit there. I shouldn't have done a single thing that I did, and now I regret it. Not what actually happened, but that it went so far, that we had both been drinking, that everyone saw and everyone knows. All that being said - right now, I can't forgive you for what you said, even though it wasn't your fault. Maybe that's all I'm am to you, drunk or sober, but I can't forgive you for it, at least not yet. I'm sorry, and I hope you are too.
A: And you. No wonder you two are best friends. I know that's all I am to you as well. Maybe that's all I'll ever be to anyone. But you - I KNOW how unfaithful you are. I've been in this situation with you before. But this time - well, you might not care, but I do. It kills me to see you with her. It really does. But I can't say no to you, because I am so damned petrified to lose you. So I will just keep my mouth shut and suffer in silence, as always.
J: I don't know how you put up with me, but thank you, from the bottom of my heart. You're a huge part of the reason I've been clean for 6 months. And I am lying to you, but it's to save you, so I won't ever tell you.
J: I love you to pieces, but I know you're lying to me. You dropped him off yesterday; just one more piece of evidence for the lie you're living, and forcing everyone else to live as well. I won't judge you, if you tell me the truth. How could I?
Mum: I may be the good child now, but I still hate you for everything you ever did - and didn't do - to me. Don't ever think that I am ever being straight with you, because every smile is fake, every agreement is a lie, and every time you're not listening, I'm telling you what I really think about you.
I'm to blame, so how can I blame him? But it's not the words that hurt, it's everyone who heard them...
That lady at CFD can't make me do anything, dad. She's not just gonna solve my problems so YOU don't have to live with them. You aren't the only one who is tired all the time. Trust me, I live under more stress.
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Reason: bah. mispelling, and I worded the sentence wrong O_o
I NEED TO TELL YOU.
I need to tell you without being scared your going to tell everyone else. i need you to tell me its ok. You won't. I won't tell you.
You can't even face me, can you? Can't even be a man and approach me. Can't even pretend that nothing happened. Is this how it's gonna be, from now on? You pretending like I'm not there, like I'm not watching you, waiting for the words you know you should say? Is this what we're reduced to?
God, I'm not angry AT you, I'm angry at the SITUATION. But you're making me angry because you can't own up to what you've done. I'm not gonna go psycho on you, call you a rapist, or anything like that. I'm willing to calmly discuss what happened and where it will lead - if anywhere.
Just look at me, why can't you even look at me? I miss you already, and I hate that I pushed you away by drawing you closer.
...please, I still need you, even now...
I'm to blame, so how can I blame him? But it's not the words that hurt, it's everyone who heard them...
I'm sorry for how I acted and what i've said. But do I really deserve this? I've laid my heart out for you and you give me nothing. You know how hard it is for me to talk, and everytime you shot my attempt to talk it gets harder.
Emma!
"Smile like you mean it, and let yourself let go... Say goodbye to the world you thought you lived it" *sigh*
Me...happy...and fabulous
I trusted you!
You don't care about anyone else but yourself.
You never cared if i was hurting or felt alone.
There are so many times that i've thought about suicide because of you!
Everytime I go to the doctor I get a jacket,a straight one. It makes me feel special because I get to hug myself.
I know its selfish, but Im just so scared that I'll loose you.. Your all I have left and I feel like I don't even know you anymore.
What We Are Is The Sum of One Thousand Lies.
What We Know; Is Almost Nothing At All.
But We Are What We Are Until The Day We Die.
Or Til' We Don't Have The Strength To Go On.
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Everytime I go to the doctor I get a jacket,a straight one. It makes me feel special because I get to hug myself.
