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Oh well....
I relapsed again after being yelled at this morning because I let my anxiety guide my actions. I made a mistake but being yelled at for 30 minutes about how unloved and unattractive I am really hurts. Sends me over the edge. I've had anxiety straight for 2 days and I need it to stop! He didn't believe me at all because I can look calm when the storm is raging on the inside. I can handle the anxiety to a point but continuing to wake up in that state is horrible. I told him he was being abusive. I apologized for what I did but he refuses and says it's because of me. I don't deserve the emotional abuse even if I didn't do something right and may have hurt their feelings but I didn't go to the extremes of hate that he has. I want to just keep cutting and cutting and cutting. I already cut my leg this morning but it's not helping. I didn't want to be extreme so I didn't cut long and deep. God help me!
Last edited by bizibumblebee : 07-04-2015 at 04:40 PM.
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