Can't cope..... Need to SH... *contains abuse* - Page 11

jessmarie123 · 04-11-2014, 02:14 PM

Please don't give up. Don't hurt yourself for what has happened to you in the past. The abuse is not your fault. You are stronger than you know, and you will get through the pain and fear.

Lucy84 · 04-11-2014, 07:43 PM

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Originally Posted by finding-my-haven

Is there anything we can do to help you? Or is there something you want to talk about?

I dont know. It is all coming back to me... what he did. What mum did. The pain of the memories is too much sometimes. I wish I could make it all go away...

Lucy84 · 04-11-2014, 07:44 PM

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Originally Posted by jessmarie123

Please don't give up. Don't hurt yourself for what has happened to you in the past. The abuse is not your fault. You are stronger than you know, and you will get through the pain and fear.

Thank you for replying. I don't feel strong. I am not strong. Not really. It feels like my fault...

jessmarie123 · 05-11-2014, 02:07 PM

It is not your fault. Please don't beat yourself up. Open up to us and let your emotions out, instead of letting them eat away at you.

Lucy84 · 09-11-2014, 09:51 PM

I feel so upset today. I can't get rid of the feeling of dread. I want to cut and just curl up in a ball and disappear....

XxDarkenedHeartXx · 11-11-2014, 05:51 PM

You've stayed being this strong, I think you should account for it and believe that at some time, it will get better, not fixed even, but just better. Did you find any new things to distract yourself with?

MyLastKiss · 11-11-2014, 09:05 PM

Last week I throw away all my tools. Today I made some new. That's how it goes I'm in it for good

Lucy84 · 25-11-2014, 11:28 AM

Last week I told my therapist something I have never told anyone before about what he did. I have cut myself every day since. What is wrong with me?

Lucy84 · 19-12-2014, 11:31 PM

Cant stop cutting..
Please help.

Lucy84 · 27-02-2015, 10:24 PM

Cutting again.

So upset...but cant cry...cut instead..
whats wrong with me?!

XxDarkenedHeartXx · 27-02-2015, 10:48 PM

How long was the break, Lucy? With Self harm?

Lucy84 · 28-02-2015, 08:26 PM

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Originally Posted by XxDarkenedHeartXx

How long was the break, Lucy? With Self harm?

Hi hun.

Sorry not been intouch for a while. Been having a difficult time...

I didnt stop for long and now it is worse than ever

I hope you are OK hunni xx

XxDarkenedHeartXx · 01-03-2015, 06:51 PM

It's okay, I understand.

If you stopped, I guess things improved for a bit? What happened over these months that made you think it's worse than ever?

Lucy84 · 01-03-2015, 08:01 PM

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Originally Posted by XxDarkenedHeartXx

It's okay, I understand.

If you stopped, I guess things improved for a bit? What happened over these months that made you think it's worse than ever?

My Self Harming... it has changed... it is more severe...

It stopped for a while coz I was back and forth to hosp with an injury to my elbow so i have been in consrant pain... now I am home and it is all strapped up and i am back to work I have started SH again....
but it is different this time... i am scared...

I hope you are ok xx

trekkiecab · 02-03-2015, 02:01 AM

Hey Lucy.

Have you tried any positive ways of coping, such as distraction, self-soothing, painting, the butterfly project?

When i used to want to SI I would draw hearts with washable markers on the place i wanted to cut, and write names of people who care about me on them so i would see them and not cut.

Another visual I used was dark, deep red fingernail polish. I would draw cuts and words and wipe them away with fingernail polish remover.

Live long and prosper
Trekkiecab