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Feeling Very Alone
I haven't been here for ages, and I usually post in Vets, but that board seems to be losing its community feel so here I am.
Basically I just really need someone to talk to who understands. My mental health has been getting worse over the last few months and the urge to self harm (which is always present at a base level) is becoming overwhelming. Eventually I decided it would be smart to make a counselling appointment and when I told my partner about it he freaked out and got upset that I didn't want to talk to him about my feelings instead. I don't feel comfortable talking to him on any deep level about it, because a) I am bad at talking about my feelings at the best of times and b) I know he will just worry too much and it will add to his stress levels unnecessarily.
Anyway I went to the counselling appointment and it was useless. I should have known better, I've been to counselling for years off and on throughout my life and nothing takes away the constant desire to self harm. I think about it all the time. I picture it in my head. I imagine how it would feel. My skin itches with the urge.
I just need a safe space to talk about it with people who feel the same way. I don't really know what I want from this thread. I just feel so alone.
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