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BPD & cutting..i can't fight the monster anymore
Hey everyone..
So I have Borderline Personality Disorder... & I was finally diagnosed with it a couple years ago after so many different rehabs, treatment centers, meds, & also diagnosed with other different things that weren't the right diagnosis.
My old psychiatrist told me that I can deal with it without meds, & I thought I could too... but now it's 3 years later & i've realized i can't do it. I just need some kind of support or someone to talk to that has BPD too... it's getting to the point that the cuts are getting deeper (i've cut since age 13, I'm 20 yrs old now), i've been abusing my prescription medication painkillers, & i even made a suicide video last week but obviously didnt act on it... i've been at a really rough spot in my life since may after a really tough break up... & i just want to be done. i try & i can honestly say i try my hardest, but just as things are beginning to get good, they get torn from me & it seems as if i cant do anything about it... I just really dont know anymore...
please help... i can't do this alone anymore.
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