Thank you
Things were better when I was on clozapine
Though I can't work out why because I'm positive this isn't mental illness.
Maybe there's an ingredient in it that the voices don't like
Like how demons don't like salt
The doctor here said she was willing to put me back on it but I'm still not taking tablets so I can't
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
Maybe the new depot will be useful. Depixol? I've been on that and I think it was quite useful but I always get too bad physical side effects with depots. What stops you from taking tablets, especially if they help?
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
I'm trying not too but I had a coffee today because staff were bothering me about it
Even the other patients have started to nag me about food and drink
Thank you
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
I will ALWAYS have something I can use as a ligature unless they stripped me naked which obviously they can't do here (it has happened before in seclusion and picu years ago)
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
Please talk to someone Beckie, you don't want to get all your stuff taken off you. We don't want you to get hurt. I know that urges can be really strong but you can get through this.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
I did tell them
I've talked quite a lot today
So far managed to not do anything
I was half asleep for a while
Really struggling today and don't want to keep bothering the staff about the same stuff all the time
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
Staff had said to me before that they'd rather I talk to them about the same things over and over than get the point of harming myself. Well done for sharing how things are for you and please keep doing it. You have shown so much strength today.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
Yes I've heard similar from staff
I guess that's what they are here for
It's a bit difficult because of moving wards it's all brand new staff so I don't know anyone but staff today have all been very nice
Just hope night staff are good too because I find night times hard anyway and today has been very difficult
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
Yeah I understand that but I think it's important that you find someone to mention it to. If no one really seems approachable then I'd just go with the one who seems the least unapproachable. I hope you can find someone to mention things to. Could you even speak to someone on now (if the shift hasn't changed) and ask for them to pass things on for you?
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.